Hi Kelly
I know where you are coming from on the emotional side of things.
I collapsed when I was told I had type 1 diabetes. I hated everything and everyone. I searched and searched for something or someone to blame.
But there was nothing, there was no-one.
No-one in my family has ever had any form of diabetes and it wasn't down to my diet either.
I rejected I had diabetes and tried to live normally without insulin (would not recommend this!).
I took me a good few years to come to my sense's, I spoke to my specialist at hospital and they referred me to a psychologist.
I spent about 2 years going through things with her and with her help managed to get my life back on track emotionally and health wise.
Don't get me wrong, I still have my bad days and really bad days, and not the kind of person who shows his emotions very well anyway (im a male
Forums like this though are a great help, there like lots of friends you've never had and one of the great things being that chances are you'll never meet any one off these kinda things. Benefit meaning you can ask people on here thing's you may not feel comfortable telling your friends or family just yet.
Don't feel guilty or silly asking anything, better to ask then to sit and be unsure.