NoKindOfSusie
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- Type of diabetes
- Type 1
- Treatment type
- Insulin
You say "normal life" but I'm not sure I understand what you mean by that? I got diagnosed with T1 just over a month ago. I'm 39, live by myself but work approx. 60 hours a week in a senior engineering job. I've found a few minor grumbles...the wait for results, looking for pharmacies that stock what I need, having to work late to make up for hospital visits, the odd hypo and bulky coat pockets.
But I don't see that anything else changes. Testing only really needs to be done maybe 5-7 times a day and takes seconds, and 2 basal and 2-3 bolus injections also take next to no time. I consider this stuff to be negligible compared to the usual pressures of work and home life.
Perhaps you could ask your GP if there is any counselling you could receive - it sounds like the fear of some change maybe triggering stress or anxiety.
No it isn't the fear of change. It's the fear of awful things that can absolutely happen and that is not an irrational fear. I could list all the things that are frightening and horrible and can happen in the future but I suspect you know what they are and for some reason it just doesn't bother you, well, it bothers me. I'm not sure what some shrink is going to be able to tell me, oh, it's OK really? No, it isn't OK. I can do all the testing and the injecting and I do, and I constantly go out of the range they want me to be in, so am I inevitably going to have terrible stuff happen? And even to achieve that, I hardly dare eat anything, I hate sleeping because I don't know what's going to happen overnight, if I take more than a tiny amount of exercise I end up shivering in a corner, and if that happens at work I will be permanently unemployed from a job I have wanted since I was a teenager, meaning I lose the place I have to live and I'm on the next plane back to Australia to live in the house I grew up in. That will also mess up my roommate because then she will lose her place to live as well, which will be my fault. If it's going finish me off when I'm 50 I wish it would do it right now and just get it over with.