Really down...losing my mind

[paulhumberstone]

Feeling really down tonight. I'm 38, T2. For a long time now...years... I've noticed more and more issues with my brain - can't find the right words for things, can't think on my feet, forget things within a couple of minutes.... I thought it would get better as I got my sugars under control but my last 2 HBA1Cs have been 39 (from 140!) and I feel worse! It's getting to the point where I can't talk to people face to face at work because my brain just doesn't work fast enough and then tonight I nearly hit someone in my car because I pulled out onto a roundabout when I shouldn't have.

I have got a lot on my plate right now - fertility issues, eating a strict diet to maintain my sugars, normal everyday life..etc... and this is aggravating my anxiety and depression anyway, which in turn is probably making my brain worse, but it's getting so bad, feeling too bad to carry on working, but I need to work to survive and my GP just shrugs it off.....

Don't know what I'm asking really, just wanted to reach out

I no just how you feel,some days when I go out I feel that talking to people is the hardest thing out.,I've had problems with my pills has I'm not sleeping.then we had to adjust to medication. Then I find out I had 4 tumours removed from my stomach,but I've been told life gets better,,but talking on here to folk is easy and comforting. I've been talking to a guy on here who help me I really appreciate the time he gives

 

[TASX]

Thanks for all your replies, sorry for not getting back sooner, Christmas has been v.busy. Unfortunately things are bad for me again tonight and I'm alone and really down.

To answer your suggestions - I haven't got PCOS and my thyroid function is normal, well TSH is anyway. I was on 20mg Citalopram a day for A&D, but came off it as I'm trying to get pregnant. That was an enormous battle in itself and I never want to have to go through that again! But I am really struggling now......

It's my birthday today and I feel awful!

Forgive me all if I haven't replied correctly as I have never posted before. It might be an idea to have your vitamin D levels checked out as very low levels can cause a lot of problems. I am in the UK and was diagnosed T2 in May 2015. However since 2011 I had started suffering from the same feelings of a cotton wool brain, unable to choose the correct words when talking, forgetting what I was doing, where I had put things, feeling out of control, desperately tired, very depressed, tearful, angry, anxious and often did not want to leave the house or be with other people. I eventually gave up working in a high stress role and driving in 2013 as I couldn't cope with either. I was diagnosed with under active thyroid in 2014 and given levothyroxine but I didn't improve. I was then diagnosed as depressed and given the medication mentioned earlier beginning with C, but that made me feel like a zombie so I stop it. It was around this time (May 2015) that I was diagnosed T2 HBA1C 48. I was taken off the Levothyroxine by a endo consultant as my tests showed I was only borderline (?). I am female (aged 53 now) 5'6" tall and weighed 92kg in May 2015. I was given a BG testing kit and had everything explained to me by a nurse at the surgery and was told to do the standard LF starchy carbs with each meal programme. I had already been following this for years thinking I was being healthy! I went on this and other sites, looked at various options for diet and started reducing my starchy carbs and cut out the few sugars I was eating ie fresh fruit and fruit juices the occasional dessert etc. I was still very tired so after further blood tests my GP diagnosed me with very low Vitamin D and put me on a 3 month course of Fultium-D 3,200 IU capsules. Since taking these tablets the symptoms I have had since 2011 have reduced significantly. I have also dropped my weight to 78.9kg and my HBA1C after Xmas was 39.

 

[scouse kev]

Feeling really down tonight. I'm 38, T2. For a long time now...years... I've noticed more and more issues with my brain - can't find the right words for things, can't think on my feet, forget things within a couple of minutes.... I thought it would get better as I got my sugars under control but my last 2 HBA1Cs have been 39 (from 140!) and I feel worse! It's getting to the point where I can't talk to people face to face at work because my brain just doesn't work fast enough and then tonight I nearly hit someone in my car because I pulled out onto a roundabout when I shouldn't have.

I have got a lot on my plate right now - fertility issues, eating a strict diet to maintain my sugars, normal everyday life..etc... and this is aggravating my anxiety and depression anyway, which in turn is probably making my brain worse, but it's getting so bad, feeling too bad to carry on working, but I need to work to survive and my GP just shrugs it off.....

Don't know what I'm asking really, just wanted to reach out

Hi shady twist I'm very much the the same I forget things and can't hold a conversation which like you again makes my anxiety and depression run wild I was told I'm not allowed to drive as I have started to putting my foot on the accelerator really heavy I can't stop doing this I told my doctor this and then I got a letter saying I can not drive.
I also get constant ringing sensation in ears 24/7 which I don't understand why being tested for this anyone have similar ???

 

[Terrymc]

I had very similar symptoms. I'd have a meeting in the meeting room to plan work and by the time I got back to my desk it felt like it happened 3 weeks ago - the structures / pictures you form when making mental notes had evaporated. As I have progressed through different types of treatment this has improved - I'm now on basal bolus (novamix rapid and Lantus) and feel like I am becoming my old self again. Shame I had to become redundant in the meantime.
My research pointed me here - towards problems with the hippocampus. http://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pubmed/25673447
Please feel free to share though, as I had a long period where my memory felt like a broken jigsaw: long term memories felt as though they had been recorded under another mood - one I could no longer feel and so the memories were even more unfamiliar.

 

[joe-90]

You need to stop driving , that's for sure, before you kill yourself or some completely innocent driver. What you are doing is highly illegal.

 

[azure]

@Shady-Twist That sounds horrible. No wonder you're feeling down.

I would see your GP and ask for a good general health check to discover the cause of this.

If you feel it's affecting your driving, then I'd put driving on hold until you have some answers, and hopefully a solution.

Take care and let us know how you get on.