Dear Kerry,
Please, this is urgent. Test, take your insulin, and go and get help. You're playing with your life here. Everyone understands, and nobody's judging you, but don't throw your life away!
What azure said is absolutely, totally right.
" if you want to lead a normal life, as you said above, the best way is to control your diabetes and then it doesn't control you ... That's the way you can win against diabetes - keep it under control and keep it in its little box. It'll always be there, but it'll be a tamed monster not a life-threatening, life-affecting one."
It sounds like you're in a life crisis right now. Talk to your boss, be honest, and try to work out how much time you need to fix this.
Once you start to help yourself, others will help too.
Sending love, Lucy