pearceam
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So after posting for the first time yesterday, I cannot keep up with the replies I have gotten. The support has been unreal and I am so thankful to those who have messaged/responded to me.
It made me think a few things. The first was that actually, I am not the only type 1 that ever existed (as it has often felt), the second was this damned thing isn't going away....
The third and final was that the only person responsible for me is me and admitting I need help is the first step. I've done my honeymoon period (which bizarrely involved almost a year with NO insulin at all ?!), I have done the "settling in" to 4 injections a day and multiple (sometimes seems like too many) finger pricks. I have done the carb counting and ratios. Now it is time to work on myself. To find a way to manage my life, my fitness, and my diabetes without feeling like it is ruling my days to ensure I have a healthy life.
I phoned my Mum tonight and told her how slack I have been. I cried, she offered to come with me to my Nurse appointment tomorrow.
The next step is talking to my Husband. I am not sure about anyone else but up until this point I have felt like not being able to manage my diabetes is a let down to him. When really if I had admitted the struggle in the first place, we could have worked on it together. Until opening up to the forum yesterday, I felt like this was a very personal thing to me, which it is. But, now I realise that it isn't something to be ashamed of. I shouldn't be embarrassed if I miscalculated or ate when I had already calculated when I just really really want another biscuit! I should say something, get the support I need and make changes to improve it - not hide it and make it worse.
So, onwards and upwards. This is just the re-beginning of my diabetic management and I am hopeful. Will update after my clinic appointment tomorrow.
Thank you all again for your support and reading this really long post.
Amy
It made me think a few things. The first was that actually, I am not the only type 1 that ever existed (as it has often felt), the second was this damned thing isn't going away....
The third and final was that the only person responsible for me is me and admitting I need help is the first step. I've done my honeymoon period (which bizarrely involved almost a year with NO insulin at all ?!), I have done the "settling in" to 4 injections a day and multiple (sometimes seems like too many) finger pricks. I have done the carb counting and ratios. Now it is time to work on myself. To find a way to manage my life, my fitness, and my diabetes without feeling like it is ruling my days to ensure I have a healthy life.
I phoned my Mum tonight and told her how slack I have been. I cried, she offered to come with me to my Nurse appointment tomorrow.
The next step is talking to my Husband. I am not sure about anyone else but up until this point I have felt like not being able to manage my diabetes is a let down to him. When really if I had admitted the struggle in the first place, we could have worked on it together. Until opening up to the forum yesterday, I felt like this was a very personal thing to me, which it is. But, now I realise that it isn't something to be ashamed of. I shouldn't be embarrassed if I miscalculated or ate when I had already calculated when I just really really want another biscuit! I should say something, get the support I need and make changes to improve it - not hide it and make it worse.
So, onwards and upwards. This is just the re-beginning of my diabetic management and I am hopeful. Will update after my clinic appointment tomorrow.
Thank you all again for your support and reading this really long post.
Amy
