Hello, I'm a 1st year university student, diagnosed with type 1 about 3 years ago. At that time I accepted the diagnosis and went on with modified diet - I literally weighed everything I ate, counted carbs and every single calorie in food I ate, I kept track on my blood sugar levels, as well as the insulin and boluses. And, well, everything was fine, my HbA1c was low, sugars too, however I got many hypos. And then it got so draining, so exhausting, so painful even. Since I was 16 at the time I got diagnosed with diabetes, my parents didn't partake in any activities concerning it - I had to learn it all alone, since I was "adult enough". Except questions about how was my sugar level, they literally didn't care. They never tried to understand and qestioned everything I did, never supporting me. But I took care of myself, I did it despite my parents approach or the fact that none of my friends (or so I thought) really cared. I got hypos and I felt so awful, even more after seeing that some teachers at school cared more than them to do something when I nearly lost consciousness. I know that it might be difficult to understand how hard it is to have type 1, but they didn't even want to know, didn't really want to listen since it didn't concern them. And then it got bad. I don't know whether to call it a crisis or maybe a depression, but I lost all motivation. I felt so alone in all this and the stress and other things were just too much at the time. I stopped checking my sugar levels regularly, didn't give myself insulin bonuses, my bad dietary habits came back. Some days I didn't eat much, and some others I catched up with big amount of unhealthy food. Some days I didn't use any insulin except the base, fortunately I still had my pump attached, otherwise I might have been in a worse conditon. I felt awfull, mentally, psychically... there were times I even thought why should I bother with anything and bad thoughts nearly won me over. I'm not sure if I'm okay now, but I know I want to get better. I don't really consider getting psychologist help, I tried but it's hard for me to open up like this. However, I would be grateful for anyone who'd like to talk to me, anyone with diabetes or someone who also had similar experience since there's literally no one in my surrounding who's also dealing with diabetes. Please contact me here, or in private message, we might provide each other help and support or simply talk about other things. I'm in process of getting better, but I don't want to feel alone in it anymore. I know there are many people who are struggling with diabetes and I really hope it gets better for all of you, as well as for me.