Hi guys
I'd be very grateful if I could get some opinions? I've had diabetes for thirteen years.
For the first four or five years I had what was called very good control, as a child- about 7 or 7.5 with hardly any lows or highs. Then for about five or six years, I'd say I had very poor control, as a teenager, til I was about 21-all readings in double figures.
HbA1c for last year or so have been 8, 7 and 8. Daily readings varying from 5 to 16, hardly any hypos- far from perfect but compared to how I was before, I thought I was doing vastly better.
Anyway, I'm doing a Carbohydrate Counting course and my team have adjusted my targets from 8.5 to between 10 and 12. They've said my hbA1c will probably be really high again, but not to worry about that as getting rid of the swings will be really beneficial and once I have stability I can work on bringing it down.
Which is fair enough, thats fine...but it seems like all the work I've been doing for two years has f*cked me up more, by having those swings- I should have stayed at 18 constantly instead! Every sodding day I discover some other bloody mistake I've made. Mostly through lack of knowledge- nobody ever told me those swings were MUCH more dangerous than being fairly high constantly. And I've been going to all my clinics and really bloody trying for two years :cry: :cry: :cry:
I cannot cope with this anymore...even when I try to be responsible I still f**k it up. Ive probably totally destroyed my eyes now :cry: :cry: :cry:
I'd be very grateful if I could get some opinions? I've had diabetes for thirteen years.
For the first four or five years I had what was called very good control, as a child- about 7 or 7.5 with hardly any lows or highs. Then for about five or six years, I'd say I had very poor control, as a teenager, til I was about 21-all readings in double figures.
HbA1c for last year or so have been 8, 7 and 8. Daily readings varying from 5 to 16, hardly any hypos- far from perfect but compared to how I was before, I thought I was doing vastly better.
Anyway, I'm doing a Carbohydrate Counting course and my team have adjusted my targets from 8.5 to between 10 and 12. They've said my hbA1c will probably be really high again, but not to worry about that as getting rid of the swings will be really beneficial and once I have stability I can work on bringing it down.
Which is fair enough, thats fine...but it seems like all the work I've been doing for two years has f*cked me up more, by having those swings- I should have stayed at 18 constantly instead! Every sodding day I discover some other bloody mistake I've made. Mostly through lack of knowledge- nobody ever told me those swings were MUCH more dangerous than being fairly high constantly. And I've been going to all my clinics and really bloody trying for two years :cry: :cry: :cry:
I cannot cope with this anymore...even when I try to be responsible I still f**k it up. Ive probably totally destroyed my eyes now :cry: :cry: :cry: