Caeseji
Well-Known Member
- Messages
- 658
- Location
- Hull
- Type of diabetes
- Type 2
- Treatment type
- Diet only
- Dislikes
- Self-fellating idiots that don't at all look at other people's views
A little phrase I have coined for myself today...
Facing my diagnosis has been a tough one, hell a year in the making given my massive burnout last year after I was diagnosed following a yeast infection before a holiday (that turned out to be a nightmare for other reasons). Since the start of the year I have swung back and forth between a radiant sense of optimism to a horrific pessimism that plagues my every single thought. I worry for my health and my future, how I am going to cope and if I will ever be able to really live a full life after spending almost 30 years now drifting in a sort of limbo that lead me to this. I realise that 30 isn't really THAT old and I have plenty of time in the usual regard to go travelling and so on but it still catches me off guard at times.
But you know what? It doesn't have to be that way, it doesn't have to be the doubt in my mind.
The way I see it now is I am at the best I have ever been in my life health wise, the fact food doesn't plague every thought means that I have other things I can focus on my work, my writing, my friends and family or the various video games I play. My health has improved so much that I am no longer having chronic pain and apparently I no longer snore loudly either. With my fasting blood sugars now in the low 5's and heading into the 4's I am officially in the non-D range and I am optimistic when it comes to my next HBA1C as I hardly even spike with my diet (last nights meal was a 0.2 increase).
The way I see it is yes, I have diabetes and may always do for the rest of my life and even if the magic solution comes out and stem cells regenerate beta cells or we find the magic pill, would I stop low carb/keto and fasting? Nope. The way I see it I am defending myself against future issues that chronic inflammation causes. I fear for a lot of my generation that have been raised on the diets they have been, yes they may be able to cope but the amount of insulin sloshing about and inflammation in their bodies? It's going to be something they can never get rid of or cope with.
I'm choosing to look at this as a blessing like the flat edge of a blade, it's only knocked me out the first time and got me to realise what was coming for me but I should be ever mindful of the edge. I did this to myself but it's also something I can fix for myself for the future to be long and bright.
Thanks for reading my little rant, just something I needed to get out.
Facing my diagnosis has been a tough one, hell a year in the making given my massive burnout last year after I was diagnosed following a yeast infection before a holiday (that turned out to be a nightmare for other reasons). Since the start of the year I have swung back and forth between a radiant sense of optimism to a horrific pessimism that plagues my every single thought. I worry for my health and my future, how I am going to cope and if I will ever be able to really live a full life after spending almost 30 years now drifting in a sort of limbo that lead me to this. I realise that 30 isn't really THAT old and I have plenty of time in the usual regard to go travelling and so on but it still catches me off guard at times.
But you know what? It doesn't have to be that way, it doesn't have to be the doubt in my mind.
The way I see it now is I am at the best I have ever been in my life health wise, the fact food doesn't plague every thought means that I have other things I can focus on my work, my writing, my friends and family or the various video games I play. My health has improved so much that I am no longer having chronic pain and apparently I no longer snore loudly either. With my fasting blood sugars now in the low 5's and heading into the 4's I am officially in the non-D range and I am optimistic when it comes to my next HBA1C as I hardly even spike with my diet (last nights meal was a 0.2 increase).
The way I see it is yes, I have diabetes and may always do for the rest of my life and even if the magic solution comes out and stem cells regenerate beta cells or we find the magic pill, would I stop low carb/keto and fasting? Nope. The way I see it I am defending myself against future issues that chronic inflammation causes. I fear for a lot of my generation that have been raised on the diets they have been, yes they may be able to cope but the amount of insulin sloshing about and inflammation in their bodies? It's going to be something they can never get rid of or cope with.
I'm choosing to look at this as a blessing like the flat edge of a blade, it's only knocked me out the first time and got me to realise what was coming for me but I should be ever mindful of the edge. I did this to myself but it's also something I can fix for myself for the future to be long and bright.
Thanks for reading my little rant, just something I needed to get out.
