Tired, Painful Joints, Lethargic, Weak, Memory Going

Well I think its about a month now

Cant stop eating nuts, one of the few things that stop me eating junk or going hungry and easy to carry
I have lost weight not sure how much, but last Friday I went for retina scan for diabetes etc, they reckoned 21.4 stone, last i got weighed at least a few months ago at Doctors i was 23 stone. I am not getting weighed like my old diets, I am not on a diet, i have just given up "the ****" as much as possible, i will need to fine tune things, probably a month or 2 yet,
Anyway I am eating, cashews, brazils, walnuts, almonds, omelettes, cheese, occasional rice krispies or weetabix, chicken fillet, beetroot, boiled eggs, strawberries, bananas,

I have not had any bread, potatoes, chips, pizzas, biscuits, cakes, chocolates, crisps, or anything in between, like sweets, crackers, or processed foods, sausages, battered, bread crumbed items, stews, soups, sauces,

But i forgot i have had a couple of icecreams OOPs sorry, and still a few bacardi and pepsi max,
I am still tired, a bit more energy, but feel healthier and lighter, but i keep forgetting to take medication

One more thing that helped is someone said i am going through the Andropause, (male menopause), I thought no chance im not having that.

My sugars arent low, and i havent organised how i would keep on top of that never mind recording details

I have a hard enough time remembering work things and i need my memory and other things improving so i can do better at work, but I am thinking physical health first, I cnat do everything at once

I wish I could talk to some of you guys

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Well its nearly Christmas, and back to where i was, but new problems. im trying to get into my head if all thee ailments are caused by the diabetes, plus I have a new problem, Im struggling to walk, as I have a lump under my left heel and arch, which presses on my already painful foot, (both feet painful to walk)

I have paids and crunching type noises in my elbows, knees, hands, feet etc. very weak all over, very tired all the time no energy, stuggling to think, never mind pay attention or hold conversations, depressed, ive lost 2 /3 of my strength in 4 years, lost muscle mass. Feet ...toes i really struggle to use shoes and boots, toes and parts of feet started to go numb, i wake up with pains in hands and feet, what feels like cramp which takes a few hours to go, from my forearms and hands and below the knees and feet, i feel like im losing feeling, definately strength, and i think circulation.

I managed to struggle through work, but have had to take time off cos i couldnt carry on, and im hoping to improve things, im one of those people who struggle to see anything working of it isnt quick, ive ended a relationship as i couldnt be doing with a needy woman when i cant even sort myself.

Ive been given amitripyline to help with nerve pain neuropathy etc, but makes me so tired, other tabs for diabetes and ramipril, and they are supposedly getting me to a dietician and diabetic nurse, to talk about injecting, or a stomach op, a dietician will be no good as ive been over things a million times, my mental state is as is., ocd depression etc, im sure keeps me where I am. Ive had couselling and CBT etc, it makes no difference cos i can see both sides and it doesnt touch what i think.

So ive packed in work with enough money to manage for maybe 2 months max, cant walk much at all (the lump on my foot i had removed years ago theni t grew back) I am going to get a cross trainer to do soemthing in the house, i will take the meds but changing food, thats a biggy, although i have found a nice jordans muesli with nuts etc, I like a drink but dont want to give it up.
I need to do some things within the coming weeks so i can get back to work with a difference i can see and others will see.
I also think that because of some things that happened to me when i was a child, that affected me for life, and its as if i dont deserve to improve and i am holding myself back as punishment.
So now not working if i cant mend, no relationship as i feel unable to be in a relationship, i have other health more physical problems affecting ability to exercise as I would like.

This is the stage of my life I think, that if i dont do the biggest thing i would ever need to do, i will never come back from, and i can see if I did all this that it could be such an example, of breaking the chains, I could be a light for others.

Cant beleive that 2 minutes on a cross trainer im knackered, so weak, no energy

I really cant see going wthout food and drink will help, Im been hindered as I have a growth under my left heel and arch, which is painful to walk on, so cant walk far or wear the right shoes.
I was thinking of making smoothies,, but not sure if i can have whole oranges bananas etc etc

Sorry but not done anything with food recently ive been so under pressure at work and struggling i just packed in and first few days taking it very easy

2christine said:

I have been truly inspired by Richards posts,i have been on the Newcastle diet since 31st of October, found this site so useful, but felt like cheating today, after reading that lot ,no way.

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I am so ravenously hungry I would pass out trying that diet, I am at 22.5 stone roughly, and even slight exercise makes me very hungry.
Probably comfort eating for years too, due to some abuse as a child and other bullying problems, but if I can get out of this nightmare, I also used to be pleased with my S** life, but now single partly due to my problems, ive lost interest in almost everything.
I packed in work, hoping to sort myself out, but cant see it working after these first few days.
The amount of help I need seems so big no one could ever help enough to fix me,