HI there and thankyou so much for this reply.
I'll tackle the quick stuff first because I think there was a misunderstanding. I'm not refusing more invasive thyroid treatment because what happened to my father. My psych is advising against it because of what happened to my father and my endocrinologist is also advising against it because it's not so bad and I'm still trailing different thing RE schizophrenia which she wants me on something more assured before we even looked into that and by her own words, she thinks I would have to be a lot worse than I am (she classed me with a warm sub-clinical thyroid adenoma; that I'm symptomatic of mild hyperthyroidism but it wasn't what she and others have classed as toxic yet) and my endocrinologist thinks that me managing hypothyroidism might be more difficult to manage as opposed to hyperthyroidism citing my dad as a worse case scenario. I just thought the doctors know way more about this then I and that's why I haven't gone for the radioactuve iodine yet.
She also calls me her favourite little nightmare, because I'm interesting but not simple to treat because of the antipsychs, and sees why she's the 5th endocrinologist I've had

. I did give her a call and my apointment with her is still coming closer but I don't think she's going to change much on it, especially when my psych wants to review my meds now my positive symptoms are on the up again.
Also, I empathize with your son. Albify made me so apathetic that I stopped eating unless I was symptomatically hypoglycemic. Because I reacted that way, I actually lost a lot of weight until I was under a healthy range. I'm still on the lower end of healthy. in terms of weight.
Anyways, you are right about my routine, I've admitted that a couple of times on this thread, I might look into that amino acid you're on about and I'll talk to my doc about it. You're also right about the social support, the thing is that I grew up in a little country town called Forbes before I moved to Sydney for university so apart from my partner, family is 5 hours away for the most part.
The thing with the regular meals is that it kinda implies regular times and I can't guarantee that. Work isn't always compromising on rostering or breaks and that makes class sign-ups at uni a little inflexible. That's why when I did try really hard last time by my diebetic team to have a regular meal plan there were instances of me missing meals without even realising I've done it and because one of the parts of was cut down the grazing it stopped working really quick. So if I had that mean plan today, where I worked from 7-12 and rushed to a workshop at uni which goes from 12-15, I might not have had it in my train of though, which is pretty leaky sometimes, to make up for the fact I didn't have that allocated time but I wouldn't have grazed because that's a very 'all the time' thing that was apart of that plan, I would probably be well and truely hypoing now.
Anyways, I'll definitely look up the stuff you've suggested because it looks really useful. I could talk to my diabetic community nurse and my partner about trying a meal plan again after I get another basal test and get my idea of carbs resorted, though I suspect that they've both be having Nam flashbacks from how badly it went last time. I'm not sure how else to address the whole social support thing, the friends I have here don't really know much about what the implications of the health concerns are, only that I have needles when I eat, I don't weight much and that when I'm stressed I block my left ear.
But thanks alot
@RuthW , you've given a new direction on it.