Hi,
@Oscar1996 , I'm wondering whether when you were dx'd they gave you some basic info about how to manage T1 and then chucked you out into the wide world to fend for yourself?
It's maybe worthwhile seeing if your hospital can get you booked onto the waiting list for a DAFNE course, or the local variant.
It varies from place to place, but is generally along the lines of 6 or so T1s sitting down with a DSN and a dietician for a week (sometimes it's split across several weeks), and doing practical exercises in carb counting and reminding folks of basic rules like 1u tends to lower by 2 to 3, 10g tends to raise by 2 to 3.
Yes, I know, it sounds a bit twee, but, believe me, on the course I was on a few years back, there was a couple of people about your age who were in the same position as you, multiple hospital admission hypos, DKAs.
At the start of the week, neither of them cared, one said she was only there because her mum told her to go.
By the end of the week, the turnaround was amazing. The combination of the formal parts of the course, along with us all just shooting the breeze about how to handle different situations, got them both to a stage where they were engaged, saying, yep, they could see ways to work with it now.
There's sometimes long waiting lists for those courses, so as a stop-gap, having a browse through Think Like a Pancreas by Gary Scheiner, or maybe signing up for the online Bertie course, link below, will give you a reminder of some of the basic rules.
https://www.bertieonline.org.uk
Also, seeing as you've got libre, I'd encourage you to make full use of that. If you buy a blucon (£100) or miaomiao (£150) transmitter to attach to it, it turns it into full on cgm with the apps xDrip+ (android) or Spike (ios). The graphs are cool (black background) and make a major difference with control once you learn to read them wellm
The book Sugar Surfing by Stephen Ponder covers how to use cgm properly.
Sure, all that is just a bit of technology and reading, but the cgm stuff (been using libre for over 2 yrs and xDrip+ for about 18 months now) has made an incredible difference to my life. I can now see in real time what my bg is doing and as each day goes by I'm learning subtler tricks to just gently steer it in real time and co-operate with it, instead of fighting it.
I think it's the lack of control which leads to the sort of burnout which you are dealing with. Sure, it does take a lot of thinking about, and that takes effort, but if you were to change your mindset a bit and say, ok, new start, I'll get me a transmitter, read that Sugar Surfing book, start figuring out how much 1u drops me, how much 10g raises me, experiment with correction doses, you might start to see a way forward.
The big difference which cgm makes, for me at least, is that instead of T1 just doing things to me, like hypos/hypers, and it being in control, I can see what is happening on the graph and control it before any bad happens. That makes a huge difference in approach to it.
It's just little things like seeing how, say, 9u prebolused by 20 mins handles a 60g meal, noting what happens and deciding whether that combo worked or needs tweaking, then storing that away at the back of my mind for reference. Do that sort of stuff for 6 months or so and bolus choices just become more obvious and the control becomes easier.
You've obviously survived the dka's. If you spend some time looking around this forum, you'll see posts from people in their late 20s facing serious complications. Often, it turns out that it's because they've played fast and loose with their bg. All of them wish they could rewind the clock and play the game differently. This condition can and will kill you, put you on a dialysis machine, limit your eyesight if you mess with it. That sounds hard but it's fair. It is your decision how you now play it. You're not doing it for your docs, your parents, you're doing it for you.
Take care, mate.