Busy times here with Sinterklaas coming up, still trying to get the perfect date through that dating site which isn't working that well so far, and all my doubts on work or education.
On that last bit, things have gotten clearer since yesterday. I missed the open day of the education I was considering due to snow a while back, not worth risking my life on the road. Took a long time to get to speak to someone instead. But yesterday I joined a quite horrible workshop on networking, and one of the other participants had been to the open day for exactly the education I was considering (social work). So I approached her during the break and she very clearly explained why it was very unlikely for either of us to find work in that field after two years of school.
Today I finally got that call from someone in the school and shared what I heard, and he agreed. So exit education for now, I'll see about work instead. But only after the weekend, I'm allowed to breathe first!
I may or may not have a date tomorrow. Very intense contact through whatsapp for a couple of days, but when it became clear I was serious in wanting to meet and not just talking in the heat of the conversation (which admittedly was rather heated) he started to have some panicky moments.
By now I'm quite sure he's way more in need of someone to hold and hug him, and tell him he's good as he is no matter the dirty tricks his brain plays on him, rather than in need of a date with a possible sexual component.
Fine with me, no schooling needed to be a social worker in your free time.

But I do hope it's not a pattern in my dating adventures. I don't mind, especially not if I like someone, but I already had the slightly psychotic one and I have a feeling that this one has some serious mental issues as well with his sudden fears and switching moods.
Oh well, we'll see. Either he'll come over or he won't, he's very conscious of not hurting my feelings, if he comes he can get a good hug and some talking if he wants to.
Proper food has gotten on the back burner for days, working on Sinterklaas surprises and poems, worrying about having to make a quick decision on this education, and chatting with this possible date.
Good thing I like bacon and eggs, or pan fried toasties!

Still, all low carb, and I will do some more serious cooking soon. I think.
My cleaner should have been coming on thursday, the 5th, which is Sinterklaas. She started nagging me on expecting a surprise* and a poem weeks ago.
Her surname is Zwaan (which means swan), and she refers to it occasionally, it's clear that she loves her name.
A couple of weeks ago in the pool they were inflating play things for the childrens aqua disco later on. The pool employee, knowing I always try to get my hands on the playing stuff after our aqua lesson threw me a huge swan to play with.

It had a leak so I told her, and she was going to throw it away.
So now I'm the proud owner of a huge swan with a mostly repaired leak!
I wrote a pretty good poem to go with it, hung a chocolate lette Z for Zwaan around it's neck, and used 6 full rolls of Sinterklaas themed wrapping paper to wrap it.
And then I sent my cleaner a completely heartless message to let her know how convenient it is she comes on the 4th instead, saving me from having to write a poem. But I do have a spare chocolate letter J and could she use it, considering her husband is named Jan?

I'm evil, and very much looking forward to tomorrow!
Also having trouble getting around in my own house now, my living room isn't that big and the swan is very large!
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*surprise: [surpreesuh]. Look it up on the Google, it's a Dutch Sinterklaas tradition.