You have asked your healthcare givers but no referral hun?
Make an appointment with your dn or gp in the morning for asap. This has to be requested asap.
My diabetic team have an excellent psychologist within the team.
When do you see your insulin nurse next?
"I try to avoid my cde because I fear not being" allowed" to keep my own control
over the way I use the insulin (they originally wanted me to use a set dose per
3 meals a day) but i find carb counting and matching the insulin to the amount of
carbs more accurate and flexible plus they accept way higher blood glucose
numbers than i do, that i feel better having without sympoms so i dont see her
very often"
I know their services are getting support lately so you should be welcomed with the correct support.
You must ask, asap.
As of tonight or til you see your dn you know you have an eating disorder but not sure how to fix it.
Remember 3 steady meals is the aim or backbone of eating with insulin.
Are you skipping insulin and meals?
" i wasnt able to do the 3 meal pattern without being left out of going
places with people because they have no schedules and i dont either so
the 3 meal pattern was tying me down plus its very obssessing in the sense that
when that clock says its a meal time i have to eat so its very inflexible
and causes me to be obssessed which doesnt help the whole problem at all"
Test, test and test to put yourself upright.
I've used a paper diary to make big changes to insulin therapy. Have you a new empty one at hand?
Your meter supplier will post you a few if you call their freephone number which also supplies its batteries.
Dn should have an empty one at hand, gp practice nurse may have one if you ask receptionist tomorrow too.
Start afresh in your diary.
Write in your last dn's instructions. Start afresh and make an attempt at your 3 meals and insulin as instructed. Don't take too much insulin. If unsure wait to see dn as an urgent appointment tomorrow but don't leave it any longer.
Tomorrow is a fresh start for you.
What insulin are you on and what was your diabetes nurse last advice on how many units you need to take or change too?
"I use lantus twice a day and rapid to match my carbs so the dose varies plus i have been adjusting my insulin on my own from the beginning so i havent any dose advice
given me"
Have you only recently acquired an eating problem or is your dn aware and working with you to make improvements for you?
"Ive had a disorder since i was 16 but it changed a few times to different
disorders but now its just binging and im actually not sure my cde (certified
diabetes educator) knows because it was my NP i told and i dont know if he
told her"
Maybe your dn wasn't aware that your need is urgent now. Lean on your dn or gp whoever you can talk to best, until mental health support picks you up for help.
Can you call your dn in the morning? As early as possible, would be
Please keep me updated.