I’ve had diabetes for 3 years, I’ve never had any control, I don’t look after my health or my mental health. Everyone I’ve met seems to have better control and can look after their health. I’ve also got EPI (Exocrine Pancreatic Insufficiency) and had that 11 months and been on enzymes for a few months, but I don’t take them either when everyone else seems to be able to take their enzymes with food and snacks. I feel like such a failure and feel like I’ve let down everyone. I just want to know why I can’t look after myself? I don’t know if it’s just inside me and subconsciously don’t want to get better cause I’d rather just die. I don’t know anymore. No one seems to know the answer. Anyone got any info into why I can’t look after my health? No lectures please or people having a go.