Worse Mh Since T2 Diagnosis

[Brie912]

Hi, I found out I had T2 a few months ago. It was a shock, I felt the best I'd felt for years after starting a new job and losing a stone. My mental health was good too but I've been dealing with quite bad anxiety and depression for several years. When I found out about the diabetes I felt a bit ashamed. All of my bad eating habits and lack of exercise had caught up with me and even though I'd started getting healthier it was too little, too late. I know I used to binge eat and not exercise because of my poor mental health and if I'd had better treatment for that maybe I wouldn't have put on so much weight, but I hate myself for this. I hate that I've lost 2 stone in the last 6 months and I see other people losing more and know I could do better (even though I know 2 stones is a lot and I'm sometimes proud of that). I hate myself every time I feel too down to go for a walk. I hate myself for not being better at my job. I hate that I have plans to go back to uni but my MH is making me question if I can handle it. I hate that I'm not as excited about it as I was a couple of months ago because anxiety and dissociation makes me not feel excited and instead just worry. It's all got worse since the diabetes diagnosis and now I'm struggling. There's so much that stresses me out about having diabetes, particularly meal prep. There's no ready made food I can pick up from the shops, I have to make everything, it's expensive and I can't have a lot of my favourite foods. And the stress of not wanting people to know because I worry how they'll see me. I'm not sure who knows at work (I told my boss and she thought it was ok to tell other people). And worrying about how it's going to affect my health long term and all the many, many possible complications.

Anyway, just needed to vent, and I hope if there's anyone else feeling like this, you know you're not alone.

 

[Mbaker]

You are no different to non-diabetics who are currently eating in a similar way that you were. It is likely that had you known for example that a large baked potato can have up to 19 teaspoons of sugar, or that bread, rice and pasta also convert to high levels of blood sugar, you may have made different decisions on foods like and similar to this.

Only about a third of people are estimated to be insulin sensitive, meaning two thirds are not, which means many who might be judgemental may end up in the same boat, so don't feel ashamed about being diagnosed as there are over 600,000 food items and 80% are spiked with sugar.

2 stones is a phenomenal loss, so be spurred on by this. My advice is to try to be the best you possible.

 

[Resurgam]

maybe no ready made meals - but there are lots of things which are minimal prep time - cooked chicken, salad stuff, tins of tuna, cheese, cooking eggs takes very little time, frozen veges or mixed berries are fairly minimal too.
What facilities do you have for food storage and cooking? What are your favourite meals you can't have now? Let us know and perhaps we can suggest something which at least something similar.

 

[zand]

I feel for you I really do. The weight loss is great and you should be proud of that - always.

The word in your post that really struck a chord with me was 'hate'. So like the way I used to be. I feel you need counselling to help you through this, it certainly helped me. Loving yourself is the key to good mental and physical health. When you learn to love yourself you don't care what others think. I bet their opinions aren't anywhere near as harsh as your own view of yourself anyway.