Diabetes is a life where you do your best or give up and you have said you have worked hard to get were you are today, so now you have a life with diabetes and you have to work hard to keep your blood sugar under control. I new i had a life of ups and downs like you will have done but no matter what i look at people who are worse off than me like people with cancer who are given weeks to live or where i live Bradley Lowery lived near and i was at the first match that he was mascot, when he died i cried because he was so young ans showed other people how to fight till then end. You are angry at the minute, then the shock will hit you and last of all why me and these will occur at other point. If you ask anyone on this site no one whats diabetes or get used to it but we do not get that choice, i have a brother who got diabetes at 32 which is about 15 years ago and has never accepted it we have tried to help him but he won't help himself. He is in hospital more than the doctors but once they have him stable he signs himself out to go back to drinking and taking drugs, he looks like a tramp and owes money to everyone. The last time i new he was in hospital they told him that if he did not change his lifestyle they would refuse to treat him, he had a normal life till he got diabetes but was the same as he was before the diabetes. He does not attend any appointments and thinks that when he needs a kidney transplant he will get one which i told him he would have no chance, he tried to get a insulin pump which he was turned down for because of the way he is. I am not saying that you will end up like him or me but you have to look at the future and look at the the progress they are making with diabetes and think that the progress will help you, it is to late for me but not for you. Like one consultant told me that no on said life was going to be easy but if you post this time next year you will feel that you have made progress even though you might be still be angry. Live your life the way you want to live it and then diabetes will not have won you may have blips along the way but anyone can diabetic or not. It is good to talk as if you don't you will get stress and this will effect your bloods, if you have no one who you want to talk to then talk on here as we all need a rant now and again. My dad got polio when he was 3 and is now 73 and said he would not swap polio for diabetes as he says people can see what is a matter with me but not with you, when i first started going clubbing i would not tell people i was a diabetic because i thought that might put them off, then i thought this is me and i have diabetes so one night i told a girl and she asked if she could catch it if we kissed and i said no but i will turn into a frog. I am not ashamed off being a diabetic and everything that i have been through because off what i have been through enables me to try and help others like new doctors, nurses, going into schools to talk about diabetes and of course people who have got diabetes. With all us oldies you get different examples of how diabetes effect each person different which you will find and having a good job and learning do deal with a major medical condition is hard until you understand how your own body works with diabetes. If you find yourself wanting to talk to or just to let off steam then drop me a line, i may not have the answer but i can listen.