Hi,
As a long time contributor to this forum, mainly because, I was advised by my endocrinologist cos I couldn't find anything anywhere on the actual reason why my body works the way it does.
Since I lost my job last summer, which was a truly horrible experience, I had a breakdown. My anxiety and depression went through the roof.
It didn't help that I was on furlough and my wife has to shield, then later I also had to.
The thing about covid for me, was that I was the only one who could go out. The idea of me shopping became something I didn't want to do. Nor was meeting people.
I only wanted to stay in my chair and watch television. If anyone was going to bring covid into the house and infect the wife, it could only be me. I was scared, frightened, and at a loss, I didn't want to be the reason for the virus, which might be fatal for her, as she is disabled.
I phoned the doctor, had a good talk, was put on antidepressants and joined the queue for a counselling.
I sorted my health. Had counselling, increased dosage, talked, and confronted the shops, I also walked an awful lot.
I am now officially retired, I am nearing the end of counselling and found that the only person to sort their feelings is you. With help, the worry of the day to day challenges can be overwhelming and the thought of being like this, made me realise that I was hurting myself, I am still battling with myself, but it has become easier to cope, we all have good days and bad days and not so bad days. I have met many of my targets and I feel more confident and comfortable with myself and some day soon, I will feel happy, maybe even elation.
My biggest problem was how to cope with only a part of my brain and not having the rest of my brain occupied, my life, was family, and football, that is it more or less it. My job was in sport. And having that taken away from me, was so mind boggling that I didn't know how to cope, and deal with the rest of my life. It was devastating.
You need to talk, you need to have someone that will be kind and you are not worried about what you say. You have to go out, no hiding away. Get help if you need it or even if you don't. Find a hobby or take part in something that will fill your time.
And may I suggest, that because, you have already joined the forum. Find out about your condition, and join in the threads, get the information you need to treat your condition and get good control of your health and blood sugar levels.
It is a great opportunity, to discover why your are diabetic, the science and how you were diagnosed and what to watch out for.
I am looking forward to summer and spending more time in the sun, with my music, my books and relaxing. And of course, getting a good tan.
No one else can do this, you are in charge, if you want to be positive or you want to be negative, it's up to you. You can do this. You are capable of doing great things, talk and walk. Confront your worries and live your life as you once did.
Best wishes
Keep safe