Hi Kevin, so sorry you're going through this horrible time. I relate to your story as I'm 2 years down the line and totally ignoring my diabetes, dismissing all the advice and generally being completely unmotivated to do anything about my diet. But now I feel that by continuing to disregard my problem I am disregarding your situation, so am 100% resolved to stick to a healthy diet, take more exercise and get my HBA1C done regularly.
I don't want to sound melodramatic but you have saved me Kevin and I owe you a huge thank you for putting in black and white what lies ahead if I continue on my current path.
I haven't read all your replies but I'm sure you've had dozens of offers of support and friendship, however if you need one more I'm here.
Much love x