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- Type of diabetes
- Type 1
- Treatment type
- Pump
I was diagnosed with type 1 when I was 12, and I am now 20. I am in my final year at university, which is 2 hours away from home. I have my boyfriend of 2 and a half years here with me to help me, but I have absolutely no confidence with my diabetes control at all.
It may sound silly, but since my mum isn't around to help me out and 'look after' me, i am just on-edge all the time and terrified of going hypo. I've only ever had one moderate/severe hypo which was 3 years ago during the night, where my mum was there to the rescue. But I am now constantly over-eating and not having enough insulin due to the huge fear of going hypo.. I don't mind mild hypos, 3mmol+, I can cope with those. My mind just always has catastrophic thoughts of me having a fit and an ambulance coming and me not making it etc. I am terrified to be on my own when nobody is there to help in an emergency, and i have horrible thoughts in my head of what would happen.
I got an insulin pump (accu chek aviva combo) a few months after diagnosis, which I used for 5 years. then I got rid of it for cosmetic reasons, being a teenager (which was silly of me). a week or so ago i started on an omni pod pump. It's amazing and I love it but my confidence is still rock bottom.
I over eat to avoid hypo, then go high, then correct, then get scared of going low, so i eat again... its a horrible viscous circle and it's so hard to get out of and i feel like lately my diabetes is just ruining my life and making me so sad and down. I just don't know what to do... everyone keeps saying 'it'll just take time you'll get better and get used to it' but i don't know.
Does anyone else ever feel or experience any of these things, and would anybody have any advice? I just feel so so alone and low.
It may sound silly, but since my mum isn't around to help me out and 'look after' me, i am just on-edge all the time and terrified of going hypo. I've only ever had one moderate/severe hypo which was 3 years ago during the night, where my mum was there to the rescue. But I am now constantly over-eating and not having enough insulin due to the huge fear of going hypo.. I don't mind mild hypos, 3mmol+, I can cope with those. My mind just always has catastrophic thoughts of me having a fit and an ambulance coming and me not making it etc. I am terrified to be on my own when nobody is there to help in an emergency, and i have horrible thoughts in my head of what would happen.
I got an insulin pump (accu chek aviva combo) a few months after diagnosis, which I used for 5 years. then I got rid of it for cosmetic reasons, being a teenager (which was silly of me). a week or so ago i started on an omni pod pump. It's amazing and I love it but my confidence is still rock bottom.
I over eat to avoid hypo, then go high, then correct, then get scared of going low, so i eat again... its a horrible viscous circle and it's so hard to get out of and i feel like lately my diabetes is just ruining my life and making me so sad and down. I just don't know what to do... everyone keeps saying 'it'll just take time you'll get better and get used to it' but i don't know.
Does anyone else ever feel or experience any of these things, and would anybody have any advice? I just feel so so alone and low.