"A new you in 42"

[Bebo321]

I am a cyber hug free zone!!
Thanks for the nice things you said, but I do not have sunshine emerging from my rear. Like most people, I have had some tough times, but also some amazing times, and I am generally content with life. I do miss some of the things I used to be able to do, but used to it now. Apart from the walking places and meeting people. If I can't got out in the car, I stay home.

To make or create something is a wonderful way to reduce stress and relax. I have started to knit. A skill learned as a small child from my mother. One of my earliest memories is reading complicated patterns to her as her fingers manipulated the needles. I never had time when I was busy working an running after family. I did try to claim knitting as part of my exercise routine early in the 42 challenge. Haha.

Okay - sorry Jamrox, I am about to digress from the topic of exercise again, because I really need a cyber hug from you all - even you Pipp, I just found out my cat died. Found him run over.
I'm so fed up.

 

[zand]

Okay - sorry Jamrox, I am about to digress from the topic of exercise again, because I really need a cyber hug from you all - even you Pipp, I just found out my cat died. Found him run over.
I'm so fed up.

Oh that's awful for you. A pet dying is one thing, when it has been killed on a road it's so much worse. Big hug from me
xx

 

[Pipp]

My daughter suffers from panic attacks and anxiety. The worst times are when she has been extremely busy for a few weeks then suddenly nothing to do. The business keeps her mind on other things. She has intrusive thoughts at times and she constantly googles her symptoms, becoming anxious about her anxiety. I'm not allowed to take the children out for the day in the car because she worries there will be an accident. When she was about 10 I had to hide the kitchen knife block because she didn't like it. I also had to unplug all electrics possible every night before she went to bed. Things have gradually surfaced over the years, about a group of girls who made her life a misery at primary school. She's 27 now and still does not feel happy if she sees these girls in the street. I remember, age 10, she suddenly started to feel better. I asked her recently about that and she said it was when we got the cat. She loved him and he used to go and sleep at the bottom of her bed.
Her 7 year old daughter gets her a drink of water when she feels in a panic and gives her a hug and tells her to calm down. Her six year old boy, I think is showing signs of becoming anxious..
The strange thing is I think I suffered a panic attack this morning. I haven't had a good weekend with regards to stress. I'm not good in the mornings since diagnosis and I had wobbly legs and a weird tummy. I was making some breakfast and the school caretaker asked me if I had seen her keys. I said I hadn't but she kept on saying are you sure? I suddenly couldn't get my breath and felt awful, hyperventilating? Only ever happened once before, when I was giving a presentation about ten years ago. Anyway it was the head teacher who had the keys.



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Its awful how things like that from the past can have such a lasting effect. Or even sneak up on you when least expected. Hope you feel better now peacetrain, and get get a decent rest during school hols. How lovely that your granddaughter is so mature and caring to her mum.

 

[Bebo321]

Yes it does taint my everyday life and at times I have been very despairing but I muddle on. My Mum had agoraphobia when I was young and was ill most of my teens with severe agitated depression so I think there's a familial thing at play as my son also is anxious and has OCD. I suffered from infertility for several years and then developed post- natal OCD which became more generalised anxiety over the years as life stresses came into play- my in-laws were both terminally ill, foot and mouth ( we farmed in Cumbria and luckily avoided it but it was a strain) and son diagnosed as on autistic spectrum. In many ways, I see the diagnosis of T2 as an inevitable outcome of all the anxiety. I ate too much as a comfort and obviously my adrenalin and cortisol levels are out of kilter 24/7.
Thanks for asking- I don't mind sharing as I think it is important that knowledge is shared to help remove the stigma and guilt/embarrassment that accompanies mental illness.I try to stay below 11, but sometimes when you least expect it, it catches you out, which is what happened on Friday. The irony was it came on as I had lain down on the bed to read my new workbook on mindful relaxtion!

You know I was just joking about the book vs hot tub don't you?! (I just suddenly thought you might have taken offence at my flippant response). I wonder how much is nurture vs nature. Is it something that you ever 'cure' yourself of, or do you just learn the tools to help you cope?

 

[Pipp]

Okay - sorry Jamrox, I am about to digress from the topic of exercise again, because I really need a cyber hug from you all - even you Pipp, I just found out my cat died. Found him run over.
I'm so fed up.

Very sorry bout your cat. What a horrible shock.
Your request for a cyber hug granted.
A big hug, and please will the rest of you join me in a group hug for Bebo321?

 

[Bebo321]

Very sorry bout your cat. What a horrible shock.
Your request for a cyber hug granted.
A big hug, and please will the rest of you join me in a group hug for Bebo321?

Thanks Pipp,
I've got tears in my eyes and feel loved.x

 

[zand]

Thanks Pipp,
I've got tears in my eyes and feel loved.x

I'm sorry you've got tears in your eyes, but I'm glad you feel loved 'cos you are.x

 

[Pipp]

I have managed to get to the pool today.
25 mins swimming breaststroke
5 mins fast treading water
5 mins water running ( through deep water feet not making contact with pool floor)
It felt amazing!
No need to add my slow shuffle leaning on supermarket trolley for 20 mins then. Sorry if I get in anyones' way with my bottle of milk and cauliflower being the only things in the trolley.

 

[Pollylocks]

Okay - sorry Jamrox, I am about to digress from the topic of exercise again, because I really need a cyber hug from you all - even you Pipp, I just found out my cat died. Found him run over.
I'm so fed up.

...oh Bebo what a horrible shock for you, how upsetting, hugs from me too XXX

 

[Scandichic]

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Ow....ow......ow!
I would never do this as I couldn't cope with the pain. I'm a cowardy custard!

 

[Scandichic]

...oh Bebo what a horrible shock for you, how upsetting, hugs from me too XXX

@Bebo
Am really sad for you. Just seen this! Lost my little chap recently!
Big hugxxxxx

 

[Jamrox]

Not with a G&T in my hand. I do find it hard to sit down for any length of time now though without starting a few foot tapping, or leg lifting motions.

Haha I'm the same, I've came up stairs to catch up with corrie , I danced about drying my hair and I've been sitting on my bed doing hand jive movements and moving my legs from side to side.

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[Scandichic]

Thanks Pipp,
I've got tears in my eyes and feel loved.x

Big, big hug! Xxx

 

[Jamrox]

Okay - sorry Jamrox, I am about to digress from the topic of exercise again, because I really need a cyber hug from you all - even you Pipp, I just found out my cat died. Found him run over.
I'm so fed up.

Oh no thats awful . I found my neighbours ( and good friends) cat when he was run over. He was a nice cat and it was awful. I had to tell my neighbour and wrap the poor cat up in a towel.
Hope you are ok xxx hugs

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[cold ethyl]

thank you all for your replies. I am touched that people I have known for so short a time have taken such a caring interest in me and my troubles.
@peacetrain and @Pollylocks - I recognise a lot of my son and myself in those descriptions of your children. Similarly my son's OCD is not of the cleaning variety( he could never be diagnosed with that looking at state of his uni house bedroom) but was a variety of obsessive thoughts which consumed him for hours at a time, and became increasingly weird as he went round and round inside his own head. Luckily having OCD myself, I could recognise the symptoms as being part of an obsessive anxiety disorder and CBT has helped him enormously. We got two cats when he was first ill and he has an amazing bond with one of them which I think kept him going when things were really bad.
@Bebo321 Not sure my hyperventilation would cope with a book on steamy hot tub scenes.
@peacetrain hope you feel better. Hyperventilation is my default breathing pattern and it sucks- no wonder you felt panicky.

 

[cold ethyl]

Okay - sorry Jamrox, I am about to digress from the topic of exercise again, because I really need a cyber hug from you all - even you Pipp, I just found out my cat died. Found him run over.
I'm so fed up.

massive hug from me. Been there and done that three times- was so glad to move house.So sorry xxx

 

[zand]

OK guys, I think I need to stay away from this thread because I have hurt someone who contributes to it. Sorry, @julifriend I was really immature. I am hurting right now and I took it out on you. You didn't deserve that.

 

[Bebo321]

Oh no thats awful . I found my neighbours ( and good friends) cat when he was run over. He was a nice cat and it was awful. I had to tell my neighbour and wrap the poor cat up in a towel.
Hope you are ok xxx hugs

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I'm fine thank you - you're all so kind.
Funny, he was such an independent cat it seems wrong to say he belonged to anybody. He lived a short but amazing life - full of adventures, scrapes, lady loves and lazy days laying in stacks of sweet hay. Kind of a James Dean of cats. Gutted but kind of proud to have had him in our lives.
Oh, my hubby and I walked 40mins visiting our local farms before we finally discovered what had happened - but the exercise bit seemed kind of irrelevant.
I'm going to run the course through the mown fields tomorrow because I'm alive and I can.
Thanks again for your support. Bx

 

[peacetrain]

Its awful how things like that from the past can have such a lasting effect. Or even sneak up on you when least expected. Hope you feel better now peacetrain, and get get a decent rest during school hols. How lovely that your granddaughter is so mature and caring to her mum.

When we break up the work begins!! I have to get everything ready for the next class!! So I won't be too far from my classroom during the holidays. I'm a bit of a workaholic. I tend to make work for myself too ... Such as ensuring each tray of crayons has the same number of crayons of the same colour in them ;-). I also make sure that the coloured cubes we use in maths are not all mixed in the same basket. I limit 2 colours to each basket. The children are less likely to produce random patterns!! I like to do all my own displays too. If it's wrong it's my fault. The chairs come in three colours and I have to have them in a certain order around the tables. Oh dear ...


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[Bebo321]

When we break up the work begins!! I have to get everything ready for the next class!! So I won't be too far from my classroom during the holidays. I'm a bit of a workaholic. I tend to make work for myself too ... Such as ensuring each tray of crayons has the same number of crayons of the same colour in them ;-). I also make sure that the coloured cubes we use in maths are not all mixed in the same basket. I limit 2 colours to each basket. The children are less likely to produce random patterns!! I like to do all my own displays too. If it's wrong it's my fault. The chairs come in three colours and I have to have them in a certain order around the tables. Oh dear ...


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Lol,
I would be your worst nightmare cold ethyl - mix the crayons up, deliberately sabotage the coloured cubes - create the chaos. I learnt through painting that actually losing a bit of control can be a good thing. Somehow it came as a surprise when I first made a complete mess of a painting and the world didn't come to an end.
Go on, I dare you to mix a couple of the chairs up!