So, I have type 1 and use an insulin pump. I also have asd, bpd, depression, anxiety, insomnia etc etc. I’ve always thought ‘at least I don’t have an eating disorder’. Until yesterday. My friend said I do. And it made me think (so much so, that it’s 5.35 in the morning and I’m wide awake researching these things). So I’m 5’11 and weigh about XX which apparently makes my bmi around XX which is fine. I wear a size XX and I’d say I’m happy with my weight and size. But I’d hate to put on weight. Like it freaks me out thinking about it. And I often skip meals and let my blood sugar level run high so I don’t need to eat as much. Like I run my pump on a low basal rate so my numbers are constantly high. And sometimes I get super cravings for food, and I binge eat like mad on all the sweets and cakes and donuts and chocolate etc and most of the time I make myself hypo first with a quick extra high bolus on my pump so I can justify it to myself. And even as I’m writing this, I’m realising it’s really not sounding good. Help? I don’t want to talk to my DSN about this yet, I guess I want to talk to my psychological people first... but how do I explain this to them?