Hi. New to all of this but needed somewhere to have a rant and ask questions so...
I've had T1 since I was 8, and now at 32 I'm still struggling with it. You'd think I'd have nailed it by now eh? I found my diagnosis fairly easy to cope with but since my teenage years and as I've gotten into adulthood, I've really had difficulty with the physical and emotional aspects of the condition. I find it so hard to stick to healthy behaviour and to keep happy for any prolonged periods of time. I've done all of the courses, get seen by a fab team and have even had CBT to try to help with the periods of depression. But as soon as I lose any focus, I'm off work again, barely able to get out bed and have no appetite. At these times I can't even face getting out my testing kit and rely on my background insulin to stay out of hospital. Do I need to change my personality to be able to be a 'good diabetic'? Cos I'm not sure I can! Should I just give up and let whatever happens, happen? Has anyone had these types of feelings? How have you coped? I know I need to be strong and get on with it. But there's so much to think about on a daily basis and I'm so so bored of it! Thank you, rant over, I think!
I've had T1 since I was 8, and now at 32 I'm still struggling with it. You'd think I'd have nailed it by now eh? I found my diagnosis fairly easy to cope with but since my teenage years and as I've gotten into adulthood, I've really had difficulty with the physical and emotional aspects of the condition. I find it so hard to stick to healthy behaviour and to keep happy for any prolonged periods of time. I've done all of the courses, get seen by a fab team and have even had CBT to try to help with the periods of depression. But as soon as I lose any focus, I'm off work again, barely able to get out bed and have no appetite. At these times I can't even face getting out my testing kit and rely on my background insulin to stay out of hospital. Do I need to change my personality to be able to be a 'good diabetic'? Cos I'm not sure I can! Should I just give up and let whatever happens, happen? Has anyone had these types of feelings? How have you coped? I know I need to be strong and get on with it. But there's so much to think about on a daily basis and I'm so so bored of it! Thank you, rant over, I think!