Sarah
I know that some of my messages have seemed harsh, but really in reality if you are finding things tough to get through at the moment, now is probably the best time to start towards making things better for you, and 7.7 is a great improvement, but it is really a tad too high still.
Personally, I find that the less carbs I have (under 100g per day) the less insulin I have and the less extremes of highs and lows I have (generally) because one my body is used to having less carbs on a long term basis now, and it doesn't have to cope with the higher lots of carbs, and then higher lots of insulin, and then higher lots of swings in readings that is possible from it all. I have just found that the lower the carbs for each meal, the lower insulin I have and therefore my swings in blood levels can only go up or down a limited amount.
For example, I love spagetti bolognese with a hint of chilli, but it sounds daft, but I don't have the spaghetti with it. I just steam some asaparagus, broccoloi, sugar snaps and leeks and I love it, and the taste of the veg and the bolgnese is all so much the better without the additional pasta, and sour cream and cheese and garlic bread that used to go with it!!! Then for afters, I will have 1/2 a kiwi, 1/2 and apple and 1/2 an orange with some low fat onken strawberry yogurt, and then after that I have a few nuts (walnuts, brazil nuts, cashew nuts-(unroasted and plain of course). This simple meal takes no more than 20 minutes to make and gives me a good balance of vitamins and omegas etc and I find it delicious, and no slaving away over roast potatos etc. My veg varies, but always includes asparagus and sugar snaps if I can get them. Yes, more expensive but no wastage.
Occasionally I vary meals and have a few chips,I also have omlette, I too like you used to have jacket potatos and roasts, but now I don't very often, and I am feeling much better for having less swings from highs and lows on a daily basis.
I was brought up initially with my type 1 diabetes of being told that I had to have lots of carbs, i.e a digestive biscuit inbetween main meals and before I went to bed etc, but from reading this forum and buying the book 'the diabetes revolution' i realised that it isn't necessary or more importantly it has made my diabetes easier to handle by having less carbs, less insulin, and now less swings in my bg levels.
I don't have any forbidden foods, if I want them, I will have them, but just less of them and with the right amount of insulin to go with them.
Once you have worked out how many carbs in a meal, you don't have to work them out the next time, as you will know how many you had the first count and whether it worked, or whether you need to up or down the insulin etc. Generally you will only have to work out these carbs and foods a couple of times and you will know what works for you.
Sarah, everybody on here is giving you good advice. Only you can decide if and when you take it. When you do decide the time is right for you, you will get some great support from people here. Don't give up girl, you actually sound that you are a good, positive person and I personally think that you have the will in you to make things better for yourself. Best wishes....