Hi I was diagnosed with T1 7 years ago when I was pregnant with my first child. It was a whirlwind, I was put on insulin at 24 weeks pregnant and then got the insulin pump during my second pregnancy 3 years later. My management during my pregnancies was great both times - very tough but I made it work and thankfully both kids were born healthy. Fast forward 4 years and things are a bit of a mess with me. My management has gone downhill and specifically the last 6 or 7 months I haven’t been testing, carb counting, attending clinic, changing my site, eating well nearly as much as I should have. To the point where physically and mentally I’m exhausted. I’m angry at your myself for getting to this stage, I know was I need to do but for whatever reason I don’t (there’s always an excuse!!) I’ve made an appointment to see my diabetic nurse tomorrow and I’m so nervous as I feel I have let myself down and I’m embarrassed at the lack of care I’ve given myself. I have 2 kids who need me so why isn’t it a priority for me to stay healthy?! Has anyone else felt they need a ‘restart’ button and to take a step back and figure it out? Did it help? Do you have any advice? I feel so lost with it all just now, I’m even struggling to get to work and carry on like everything is normal as I just feel exhausted with the lot.