Hi helenjones,
I have been diabetic for just about seven and a half years and have only really accepted that I have got it in the last 6 months or so. My hba1c was 99 in September last year - another rise in medication which I really didn't want but at least I was taking it then - I had spent years not taking it as I didn't have a problem did I? I wasn't unwell etc despite my knowing that it is future problems that I was storing up trouble for! In January I decided to tackle it head on (not sure what made me feel so determined lol) and I have changed my diet and in last 6 weeks have joined the gym. However it hasn't been without its down sides - I have had loads of hypos and knocked myself out with one!! Please be careful with a strict new regime and have medical advice on side. I do understand how low you can feel - it's never to late to change things and reduce risk of further complications

you can do this - my hba1c in March was 54 and I feel so much better in myself - more energy and mood is much better (my husband may not agree with that lol). It's a cliche I know but I want to be in control (as much as I can be) and sometimes no matter what you do if your body isn't working properly there isn't much you can do but acknowledge it and take the medications. I have had run ins with my GP for being a non compliant patient but they have no idea how difficult it can be to live with everyday and have to think about what you are putting in your mouth all the time! I am a nurse and so know how important it is but I am also a person and have feelings and struggle with things the same a everyone else. I have every confidence that you can make changes if you need to and deal with it - hope some of this has helped you - good luck!! Let us know how you are getting on

and brilliant you have a supportive family - I too am lucky and it makes all the difference x