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Me and my partner have been together for a while now. He is an amazing guy, and I love him dearly. We have recently moved in together into our own apartmant in London, which has been a dream of ours for some time now, but thins are very difficult. He has type 1 diabetes, insulin dependent. And, when he has lows, hypos...he becomes very mean, agressive, irritated and sometimes even physical ( never hit me but throws things and hurts himself). I try to support him in those moments, but it puts so much stress on me that my whole body starts shaking on the inside, and I feel my heart pounding. It always appears out of nowehere. Id walk with him holding hands, or we are having fun, cooking or cleaning together, and on the inside it's like I'm just waiting for the next hypo and for him to becme verybally abusive. i constantly wanna ask him to check his sugars, which is hard for him. It happens often enough for me to feel unhappy and really tense. I notice I am calmer when he is away. I love him so much and I try to support him, when he has a hypo, I try to assist him, hold him, lie next to him, give him water etc. Coping with the stress is hard, especially afterwards, when he doesn't even remember what happened.
There are the good and there are the bad days, and even though I try concentrating on the good ones, I wonder what can I do to deal with it better. He promises to eat better and prevent hypos, but they happen anyway and all the promises are empty words. Can a diabetic PROMISE to get better? I think, no.
I feel like I am about to give up. I lost my sense of self in this relationship and I am starting to doubt why am I in it? I think of myself as a bad nurse and bad girlfriend, rather than a happy woman. By the way I'm 29, he is 34. We are both adults, yet this problem seems to not get resolved.
This sounds extremely selfish, but what can I do? I have such tension and fear and there is literally NOBODY who understands.
There are the good and there are the bad days, and even though I try concentrating on the good ones, I wonder what can I do to deal with it better. He promises to eat better and prevent hypos, but they happen anyway and all the promises are empty words. Can a diabetic PROMISE to get better? I think, no.
I feel like I am about to give up. I lost my sense of self in this relationship and I am starting to doubt why am I in it? I think of myself as a bad nurse and bad girlfriend, rather than a happy woman. By the way I'm 29, he is 34. We are both adults, yet this problem seems to not get resolved.
This sounds extremely selfish, but what can I do? I have such tension and fear and there is literally NOBODY who understands.