My name is Rachel and I'm a type 1 diabetic. I was diagnosed when I was 18 and it's been 5 years. My blood sugars are terrifying. I don't know what to do anymore. I haven't had a good A1C since I've been diagnosed and my last one was 8.9. I'm so scared about what is going to happen to me (having panic disorder and generalized anxiety disorder dont help). I'm at a loss. To me, the best I can describe my struggle is with math. You have elementary math that everyone seems to get, and is easy to understand.... Throw in one variable, "X", and most people can still solve that. Throw in X and Y and things get a little difficult. Try adding Z and A and B.... all those variables and the equation seems impossible. To me those variables are: carbs, fat content, protein...exercise, stress, activity, fear, everything. EVERYTHING changes my blood sugars and I don't know how to even get a grasp on it. I feel like I have all the tools: I have a pump, I have a continuous glucose monitor, and I have a meter. And I feel like I have the knowledge: I can tell you about how many carbs are in just about anything, plus everything I've learned over 5 years but I still can't get it. I don't know what to do, I need someone to talk to me about how they got their sugars under control. I have no idea what is wrong with my ratios. They work sometimes and sometimes they don't. I just don't know how to balance an equation with so many tiny little variables. Anyone that can give me some advice, please please try.