I'm T2, currently taking Alogliptin only, was taking Metformin but had seen post about this possibly causing depression or worsening it so I stopped taking it.
My depression is now so bad I can barely function, there are vermin back in the walls of this house for the second time in 2 years, been told it's because neighbours are keeping pigeons in their garden, feeding squirrels and foxes and we have to suffer for this. I am in a constant state of terror and severe anxiety to the point I simply do not want to be here anymore, I pray every night not to wake up in the morning.
I had been trying to maintain a low carb diet, now I just don't care, what is the point? I can see no hope with this, DN told me at last appt I'm going to have a heart attack, if she only knew I was thinking as long as it's fast and fatal. Sorry for the utterly depressing post but this is how I feel now.
Maggie
Greetings
@Maggie75 . You are not alone - absoutely. On both the Low-carbing doldrums and the diabetes doldrums.
In my own country (Aotearoa/New Zealand) they did a survey of folks with type two, and came up with the chilling stat that 80% of people with type two suffer from periods of depression, to do with all the rigmaroles of having a chronic disease with a high level of personal involvement involving constant day in day out engagement with your BGs and of course - your food and drink, not to mention meds and movement. It's referred to as 'diabetes distress', just to reinforce the fact you are not alone for sure!
Ditto on metformin having a depressive effect for some people. All part of T2D being a metabolic disease, a systemic disease. And sadly, why emotions and emotional responses can affect our blood glucose - already well dysregulated, to being even more dysregulated. What a bu**er! This has abnsolutely been part of my own, cutely (??!!) named 'diabetes journey'.
I just thought I would share my own responses to the hyper-attention to food and drink, the BGs and the diabetes doldurms.
For my own inspiration on the food and drink front - I have 2-3 time outs a year, where I have celebratory treats. This year I had my elderly mother at mine for Easter, so I indulged in chocolate easter eggs, and a store bought hot cross bun for brekkie as my mother loves them. (Gosh - so do I! My homemade LC/keto hot cross buns are not at all what the wheatie soft ones are!) I need these treat days (Easter is some years yes, some years no), on my birthday and Xmas Day, and sometimes environs. But yeah I do pay with having to work extra hard on low carbing and monitoring my waist and BG afterwards.
To get back into Low-carbing (LCing), I remind myself how really high, and really unhealthy it would be if I wasn't LCing. Boy oh boy! Would my colour on my diabetes BG chart go from the current deep orange into the fire engine red zone! Meaning - my bad condition would be even worse. And I like my eyesight and my kidney function. That's my own take on it at least.
When I recently at a diabetes clinic in a city that has one third of its population with BG regulation problems, after rollling my eyes at the pix on the wall of 1/4 plate of carbs per meal prescription, I did note the many many entreaties for those with diabetes distress to get counselling/kindness/therapy as part of their treatment. I put my name down for it, absolutely. Fingers crossed on that front!
