Not sure why I'm posting, maybe to get it off my chest but here goes. I'm not on diabetic meds but the nurse keeps nagging so I thought it was time to get myself I gear and get my sugars under control. I've been trying to loose weight for about 6 months by going to the gym twice a week and eating a healthy diet. I'm getting married in October and 3 stones need to go! Anyway the weight didn't move and when my diabetic nurse said my Ha1b was higher this time I was shocked. I started to check my bloods and my healthy diet was seemingly too carby despite being the non processed sort. So I started low carb/keto. The first week was OK but week 2 and 3 were hell. Permanent headaches despite trying all recommendations for preventing this, it was debilitating and I've a family and couldn't function. It's been a week since I've increased my carbs but I can't get a happy medium. I lost 5lbs in those three weeks and I'm terrified I will put them back on. I'm tired, my anxiety is through the roof and I'm so sad and weepy. I've no idea what to cook my family in the evenings anymore, I lack the motivation to get in the kitchen as I have to over think everything to try and get what I have right. I don't enjoy cooking at the best of times. And I'm not sure I can bare another omelette for my lunch. Yes there are ideas all over the Internet but the prep and time and sometimes expensive ingredients are just too overwhelming. I need to loose weight for my health and my wedding and I feel I'm running out of time (for the wedding). My diabetic nurse has referred me to a dietitian but how long that will take I don't know. I just want to curl up and hide away and stop thinking about food... I hate the obsession it's creating in me. I couldn't face cooking my lunch today so had a bread roll with no sugar peanut butter and my bloods went from 6.3 to 10.1 in two hours so the guilt set in. The carb heavy roll then meant that just having simple veg for my evening meal took me over 100g of carbs... I'm trying to now stick under that number... I dont know why... Not sure what I'm even doing. Tomorrow is sausage and chip night from the chip van that visits... I dont even get a night off from cooking anymore as I have to make something just for me. Sorry for the essay everyone.