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Discussion in 'Reactive Hypoglycemia' started by Lamont D, Aug 12, 2020.

  1. Lamont D

    Lamont D Reactive hypoglycemia · Master

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    Hba1c, 38
    Cholesterol 5.7,
    Everything else normal including insulin levels, but except kidney and liver function, as with all my results, slightly up on last year.
    It is not surprising for a few reasons.
    I was furloughed, then found out by phone that my company had changed my contract, without my consent and tried to avoid paying redundancy. I have acted upon this and finally came to an agreement, but I was so devastated by their attitude and their treatment of my employment, it was a disgrace.
    I have been treated with my no respect at all! I have never been out of work since I left school, over fifty years ago!
    This has come as a major setback for my retirement as I don't receive any pension until next year. I have already had to spend some money that I may need in the future.
    Losing my job, not being as active, the thought of being the only one in my house who could go shopping and bringing the virus back with me to my disabled wife, as she was on the at risk list.
    News of being as resolute in my diet as I should be, the fear of getting the virus and my anxiety levels became more entrenched and the viscous circle became too much for me and I had a breakdown.
    Because I really didn't want to out and only went to the shop very reluctantly, when the shop was empty, I couldn't control the situation, I would freeze and have had up to now three panic attacks in the shop.
    I have also started shaking and hiding away from everyone, my irrational behaviour, my irritating attitude, I am angry with life, I am so disillusioned with my life, I have rage, I have no patience and everything is too much for me. I have no life!
    All my interest in my normal life has gone. My family has been so supportive especially through the pandemic and helping me get my money. They deserve a better me.
    But I just can't do it!
    Since all that, I had a few phone calls and a couple of face to face meeting with my doctor, who has been so understanding of my condition and circumstances, I was immediately referred to a counselling service and have had two introductory sessions, just awaiting further appointments.
    I am on meds for my depression and anxiety, it is helping but it is early early days yet!

    I am determined to get through this, everyone is telling me that it's going to take a while to get through this, but having not have had depression before, it is a new challenge that I have to beat.
    I am very unlikely to take my life, not even considered it, because who would look after the wife?
    Today was a good day, I have had some awful days lately, some really awful and despite it all, things have to get better.
    I apologise for the tone of the post but it has helped to write this.

    Keep safe.
     
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  2. Antje77

    Antje77 LADA · Moderator
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    Hi @Lamont D ,
    So sorry to hear you're having a rough time!

    No advice (looks like you're already doing all the right things), just wanted to let you know I'm thinking of you. Depression/anxiety are *******.

    Oh, and your former workplace sounds like one too.

    Hope life will be a bit brighter for you shortly!
     
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    KK123 Type 1 · Well-Known Member

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    Hi @Lamont D, so sorry to hear this. You are such a regular on this forum and are always happy to help others out especially with your rarer diagnosis. I guess you never really know what someone is going through behind the scenes and I just wanted to say, hang in there, you are a star and never underestimate what YOU do for others and how grateful we all are. xx
     
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    Hi @Lamont D
    You are doing all the right things: writing it down, talking it out, asking for help, having counselling etc but best of all not letting your own health go.
    These are tough times, some employers are being s***, and you did well to get a settlement. I know of many who didn't. Theres a support group called ExcludedUK you may wish to check out, unless the stories of up to 3 million more would be more depressing. You are not alone and nothing is personal.
    Your help and support to tohers on here is so valued, please try to continue that, and to take such good care of your wife. You are needed and valued and loved
     
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    @Lamont D so sorry to hear you have been treated badly. You and your family deserve better and I hope that you can recover from the shock to come back stronger and find a new role.
     
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    I’m so sorry @Lamont D
    You have been through so much, and controlled your RH so well, I am sure that you will conquer this too, if you give yourself a little time.
    Have a hug.
     
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    So sorry to read this @Lamont D

    You really have had a tough time. Thinking of you.
     
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    Lamont D Reactive hypoglycemia · Master

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    Just an update.
    Counselling next week, with a specialist in anxiety and depression.
    Have more bloods to be done, the doctors reckon my kidney and liver function tests were skewed by being hydrated, because as usual I was fasting and didn't drink enough water before blood given.
    Having a scan next month on my liver and on my naval area. My doctor thinks that I have a benign lump by my belly button.

    Will let you know how I get on.

    Keep safe
     
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    Firstly well done on your good blood results.

    About 3 months ago I started taking Lexapro for anxiety & it helped a lot.
    I'm now at the stage where I am weaning off it, happy to report no adverse effects.
    My doc blamed the heightened Covid situation as the root cause on top of my diagnosis.

    Be safe in the knowledge you're not the only one going through this.
    Best of luck.
     
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    Lamont D Reactive hypoglycemia · Master

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    Update, had my scan yesterday, at my local hospital, it was scary because I only saw a receptionist, my scanner Stephen and the next victim after me, there was the usual in-patients having a fag in the car park but I couldn't believe how empty the public areas were!
    Apparently, they are getting ready for more covid19 patients.

    Anyway, my bloods came back all normal, my lump by my naval is fattg tissue, my liver scan was no worse than a fairly fatty liver, which has been a problem of mine since last century!

    So all in all, I feel reassured that I've virtually got my control back and my health hasn't deteriorated too much during lockdown and my anxiety and depression has eased somewhat. My energy levels are not brilliant but better.

    The antidepressants are working better since I upped the dosage last week!

    Still angry about the way I was treated!

    Keep safe
     
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    Lamont I am truly sorry for shock of your employers treatment. That would crush anyone and its just not fair. You are taking care of your wife and doing your best. Glad the hospital tests went well and good BG control so be proud if you will allow yourself to be! Thanks for all you do for us on here with support and help.
     
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    Lamont D Reactive hypoglycemia · Master

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    Thanks for the support, I have had great support from the other employees still there and of course the ones that got forced out, one had worked for 28 years man and boy and a huge part of the identity of the club, he would be termed a legend and even though mine was a complete shock, his was predicted, as was another legend not too long ago! My family and friends have been so understanding and have done so much to help me through this time.

    One of the reasons I keep coming back on here is that is the way I am.
    All through my hard working life, I have always found time to be there if needed, I was an ambassador and the friendly face that greeted many thousands of people to my club. I know well known people within the industry and have travelled the country and been first contact with other clubs and being personable was a huge part of my job.
    I have some great memories of my time there and seen the good times and of course the bad, which most of the redundancies were, the older employees who dragged this club back into where it should be. There is now only two left now, since the change in owner five years ago, one is in his late seventies and the owners are expecting him to either retire or die! The other one is the archivist, he also brings all the paperwork into the clubs computer system and editing the programme. Even he is worried he is next!
    Most of the clubs employees are on furlough, the owners are using the government's handouts to supplement wages and using volunteers through the supporters club to do their work.

    Thanks again, stay safe.
     
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    Lamont D Reactive hypoglycemia · Master

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    My latest phone call with my GP went well and yesterday I had a really busy day, the result was a nine and a half hours sleep, which left me dehydrated and aching from stiffness in my joints, the only reason I woke up was the need to go to the toilet. I probably would have been there a lot longer!
    So, my doctor informed me that my liver scan, is now slightly fatty, interesting enough my GP said because of my scan a good fifteen years ago, that my NAFL could have been the insulin, that was so high before diagnosis. Because of the results of my blood tests and my scan, it will only be another scan in 12 months.
    We had our flu jab as well and I found out about my pneumonia jab, was done in 2015.
    I had forgotten that!
    The rest of the phone call was about my depression.
    I know that the tablets are working but still feeling now and again very low.
    I have been doing more, and I know that I'm now not wallowing in a bad mood, my anger has gone for now, but I don't accept the circumstances of what happened to me. I'm working my way through it, finding out the reasons for it, but as always I don't have anything to replace the job and the boredom and the prospects of a fulfilled future. I have no idea what how I'm going to replace it!
    Still awaiting a phone call from my counsellors.
    There is no pleasure in my life. Only my family!
    Which by any account in the last 24 or so hours, I have seen in person all my children, and 5 of my grandchildren. We have been in lockdown but because of obligations and birthdays it happened. I haven't seen my daughter since lockdown in March and it really lifted my spirits to talk and play with my grandson.
    Had some other good news, my eldest grandson has now got letters after his name as he smashed his university course in IT. With honours!

    I'm determined that this mental health condition can be controlled just like my RH!
    But it's going to take a long time and there is many more hurdles that will cross my path. I can only take one day at a time and try and come out the other side.

    The one thing that I know for certain, despite my physical health, that I don't believe I'll ever work again. Even though we could really do with the extra cash!

    Keep safe.
    All my best wishes to everyone.
     
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