Hi Linashjoe,
Only you can take back the control in the situation that you are in. Yes, you are on 9 tablets a day but you can try to improve your situation.
What is your diet like? What are your glucose levels like, and is the medication helping your levels?
Depression is something that can affect anyone, but living with diabetes can seem like a great big uphill struggle, so it's no wonder that many diabetics can suffer from depression too.
It's important that you speak to your GP or Diabetic nurse and tell them how you feel. You may be able to be referred to talking therapies such as counselling to help you cope.
Do you have a support system around you at home?