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- Type of diabetes
- Type 2
I'm a Type 2 for 11 years. For the last 3 years tablet medication and those new injectables have failed to bring down my HbA1c. I was finally started on Levemir Insulin in May and increased the dose to reach 120 units at 8pm and 60 units at 8am. I was also on Metformin, but other diabetic meds were stopped because of side effects.
With hard work, and perhaps some disordered eating I lost weight, 2 stone but my blood sugars were still high.
Then my latest HbA1c came back at 96% and already being low in mood and feeling trapped, this became the final straw, especially after my encounter with ATOS / DWP the same week.
Consultant gave me fast acting insulin Humalog to start 10 units x 3 times a day with meals. He told me I would gain weight with this. This is the reason they delayed me starting insulin because of weight gain. I am waiting for weight loss surgery, but can't be approved for surgery until my HbA1c is under 65%
It's been over a week since I saw my consultant and I've ceased all diabetic meds including the Levemir... I cannot afford to gain weight, and it seems with the higher rate of Levemir I gained 6lbs, so to start Humalog and gain more I just cannot do. I've also ceased testing my blood sugar for almost a month.
To be honest all I thought of when being given Humalog was "this is my way out of this hell, I can take an insulin overdose"
I've had mental health issues for many years but have had no support from the CMHT for 18 months, I was doing well, now things are sliding and have been most of this year...
I cannot and will not inject insulin if there is a risk of weight gain.
I no longer know what to do. All I can think of is harming myself. I know the signs I am getting unwell, one of which is decluttering which I've spent the last week doing in a rather OCD manner.
I tried to see my GP, but couldn't get an appointment till the end of the month. I spoke to a crisis helpline charity and they faxed my GP on the 8th to ask that I was referred back to the CMHT urgently. I heard nothing until GP letter today asking me to book a telephone appointment to discuss my call with the crisis helpline charity. I don't want to talk on the phone, it's not helpful. I want to sit and talk to someone. Is that to much to ask?
With hard work, and perhaps some disordered eating I lost weight, 2 stone but my blood sugars were still high.
Then my latest HbA1c came back at 96% and already being low in mood and feeling trapped, this became the final straw, especially after my encounter with ATOS / DWP the same week.
Consultant gave me fast acting insulin Humalog to start 10 units x 3 times a day with meals. He told me I would gain weight with this. This is the reason they delayed me starting insulin because of weight gain. I am waiting for weight loss surgery, but can't be approved for surgery until my HbA1c is under 65%
It's been over a week since I saw my consultant and I've ceased all diabetic meds including the Levemir... I cannot afford to gain weight, and it seems with the higher rate of Levemir I gained 6lbs, so to start Humalog and gain more I just cannot do. I've also ceased testing my blood sugar for almost a month.
To be honest all I thought of when being given Humalog was "this is my way out of this hell, I can take an insulin overdose"
I've had mental health issues for many years but have had no support from the CMHT for 18 months, I was doing well, now things are sliding and have been most of this year...
I cannot and will not inject insulin if there is a risk of weight gain.
I no longer know what to do. All I can think of is harming myself. I know the signs I am getting unwell, one of which is decluttering which I've spent the last week doing in a rather OCD manner.
I tried to see my GP, but couldn't get an appointment till the end of the month. I spoke to a crisis helpline charity and they faxed my GP on the 8th to ask that I was referred back to the CMHT urgently. I heard nothing until GP letter today asking me to book a telephone appointment to discuss my call with the crisis helpline charity. I don't want to talk on the phone, it's not helpful. I want to sit and talk to someone. Is that to much to ask?