I've been Type 1 for 4 years last month. Diagnosed @ 15, I'm now 19. My blood sugars were OK for the first year or so as I did as I was told, but when I was about 17 I hadn't quite accepted the fact I had diabetes.. All I wanted to do was live a life WITHOUT this burden. I hardly tested and didn't take enough insulin as I couldn't be bothered to deal with the hypo that would come on 5 hours later and have to panic around my friends. This is what I believe threw me off track. My blood sugars are way too high, pretty sure my last HBA1C was 11%. Obviously I have some hypos but very rarely, a few a month or something, I'm so frightened of them. I'll have these bursts of motivation, I'll go on a diet, less carb more veg, start getting hypos even after changing doses and think **** this. I've called 111 numerous times with hypos as I think I'm going to die. I just feel so alone. I only knew 1 person at school who had diabetes and he was so well controlled. If you've been through this do you have any tips on how to stay motivated? It's like, I know it will soon become second nature, but I've been going so long as if I don't have diabetes I find it so hard. The worst part about it all is knowing that I could be blind or without my kidneys in 20 years. I'm just so frightened, I'm 20 this year and really need to sort myself out. I've already lost a really good job and friends because I was always sick, depressed and so tired. Sigh.