Hello, I would like to share how when my blood sugars are stable in the range of 80-125 I feel great I feel that I could fly and I’m the happiest person, and I’m genuinely just having a great time! My A1C has always been around 5-5.5 which is great. I was first diagnosed with type 1 diabetes when I was in 6th grade when I was about 12 years old, at the time before I was in a some type of depression that the diagnosis of diabetes had took me out of it, had sort of woken me up, so I never complain about needles and everything. Everything was going great until the summer of 2017 (I was 17 at the time) when I had went on a trip for 1.5months where I had did something my family members didn’t like, especially my parents, so after I had come back from the trip I realized that I had made a mistake and just zoned out my brain from any thinking because I couldn’t afford to do anything stupid. For a whole year I worked as a pleaser, mind you this was my senior year of high school, the 12th grade. Now that I was 18) I didn’t want anyone else to be disappointed with me, what my friends said or my “friends”(not all but most) started taking advantage of all of that since they would be upset I thought it was my responsibility to pacify them. This also goes hand and hand with my family because I did the same thing. The thing I lost though was myself. I stopped being happy I was just genuinely not happy, I would smile, I would laugh, but nothing was genuine. After a friend broke apart from me because they wanted me to stop being friends with someone I knew from a very long time, someone I’m close to, when I refused they told me, “I don’t want a friend that does not respect my decision,” this made 0 sense because that person did not respect my decision of no either. While this drama was going on (I do not enjoy drama, I hate it a lot because I think it’s stupid and a waste of time) I was getting closer to who she didn’t want to and ignoring the people I loved. Now that I have realized in the summer of 2018...I must live life like I did before 2017, but obviously I’ve learned so many new things, new ways to approach things and others. Bringing my confidence back, I used to do what I wanted when I wanted, I didn’t care what other ppl did or thought. Imma bring that in with the new things I learned. I learned how to put my morals and principles up first, j like I did last year. I wanna achieve my goals and I wanna zone out the haters. Talking about the stepping all over me...that didn’t happen till 2017...I learned to forgive and zone out grudges! I have also leaned that I need to focus on the bigger picture.
Since that time my A1C has gone to 6.8-7.3 which is very high, at least for me. I kinda just stopped caring for myself I don’t know why but I just feel very lazy to do so. I know it matters because I would die young if I didn’t start caring for myself again, but I don’t know how to, I don’t know why.
Since that time my A1C has gone to 6.8-7.3 which is very high, at least for me. I kinda just stopped caring for myself I don’t know why but I just feel very lazy to do so. I know it matters because I would die young if I didn’t start caring for myself again, but I don’t know how to, I don’t know why.