I have always had anxiety, ever since I was a kid. I will not say I have OCD because OCD is a real thing and not just something that everybody has for having worry, but I can fixate on something for a while.
I feel as though my November 2017 FBG score of 115 (up from 108 in Jan 2017) is related to my severe anxiety of needles because of the one time I fainted at the lab and it scared and confused me.
BTW my 115 FBG came with an A1C score of 5.0%.
I tried to get my doctor to talk to me and explain how nervous FBG tests make me and my A1C score and he didn't listen and basically dismissed the A1C score and said the FBG is the one that's more indicative of what's going on.
Then he proceeded to berate me for eating too many carbs, drinking too much wine (I do not drink wine...I do drink bourbon though) and being too fat. At 5'9" I was about 193 LBS.
Since then I have switched to much lower carb intake, salads, less liquor, much more exercise including walks on my lunch, much more indoor rowing. I have gone down to about 163 LBS (!!) and have taken about 4 inches off of my stomach. The first thing people say to me now is, "Oh my God you have lost so much weight!"
That's 15% or so of my overall body weight.
I still need to tone my chest and stomach, everything else is firm.
I bought a test meter. And I test it and get many test days in the 77 to 88 fasting range. But sometimes they go up into the 90's.
I have been eating so much better, lost a TON of weight, exercise MUCH more. But some days when I wake up having bad dreams, sleep like ****, have bad anxiety, my blood glucose creeps up. I was so scared of the test results being bad news that even after several days of 88 fasting on my home glucose meter, I tested at a 111 on test day and had to go the next day.
Some days, especially anxiety days, my numbers are higher, despite eating clean. Sometimes they are lower despite me eating more carbs than I should.
They can go up, and they can go down.
When they are higher than normal, I obsessively surf the internet, my palms sweaty, my mind racing, crying inside, trying to figure out WHAT'S THE NORMAL????
I've worked my ass off and lost a ton of weight and better health choices food and exercise-wise, but I still get obsessive that I'm getting symptoms.
For example, my feet will get hot at night and I go "Oh no!! That has to be nerve damage!" then I'll run and prick my finger and the numbers will be in the mid 80's or 90's.
I fee like testing less and just trusting that i am doing the right thing will be better for me, but it's so hard when the means to ask your body what its blood is doing is so doable.
I feel as though my November 2017 FBG score of 115 (up from 108 in Jan 2017) is related to my severe anxiety of needles because of the one time I fainted at the lab and it scared and confused me.
BTW my 115 FBG came with an A1C score of 5.0%.
I tried to get my doctor to talk to me and explain how nervous FBG tests make me and my A1C score and he didn't listen and basically dismissed the A1C score and said the FBG is the one that's more indicative of what's going on.
Then he proceeded to berate me for eating too many carbs, drinking too much wine (I do not drink wine...I do drink bourbon though) and being too fat. At 5'9" I was about 193 LBS.
Since then I have switched to much lower carb intake, salads, less liquor, much more exercise including walks on my lunch, much more indoor rowing. I have gone down to about 163 LBS (!!) and have taken about 4 inches off of my stomach. The first thing people say to me now is, "Oh my God you have lost so much weight!"
That's 15% or so of my overall body weight.
I still need to tone my chest and stomach, everything else is firm.
I bought a test meter. And I test it and get many test days in the 77 to 88 fasting range. But sometimes they go up into the 90's.
I have been eating so much better, lost a TON of weight, exercise MUCH more. But some days when I wake up having bad dreams, sleep like ****, have bad anxiety, my blood glucose creeps up. I was so scared of the test results being bad news that even after several days of 88 fasting on my home glucose meter, I tested at a 111 on test day and had to go the next day.
Some days, especially anxiety days, my numbers are higher, despite eating clean. Sometimes they are lower despite me eating more carbs than I should.
They can go up, and they can go down.
When they are higher than normal, I obsessively surf the internet, my palms sweaty, my mind racing, crying inside, trying to figure out WHAT'S THE NORMAL????
I've worked my ass off and lost a ton of weight and better health choices food and exercise-wise, but I still get obsessive that I'm getting symptoms.
For example, my feet will get hot at night and I go "Oh no!! That has to be nerve damage!" then I'll run and prick my finger and the numbers will be in the mid 80's or 90's.
I fee like testing less and just trusting that i am doing the right thing will be better for me, but it's so hard when the means to ask your body what its blood is doing is so doable.
After several cups of chai with a little whipping cream it certainly wouldn't be now.
