I think it's such a shame that when you read some comments about 'going on insulin' it almost makes it sound like a massive failure. Please try not to worry, I know that many people on this forum are able to avoid insulin by diet alone, etc and that is great and a real achievement, BUT if for whatever reason you don't do it/you can't do it/you don't want to do it, then insulin can be great too. Yes, it takes a lot of effort to manage insulin and there are many disadvantages to trying to control things on insulin but on the other hand it can also be a massive relief. x
I can speak as someone who had a diagnosis of T2. For many of us it can be the first longer term condition we have to learn to live with, and for me I had a massive desire to remain pharma-free, because I couldn't bear the thought of being tethered to a pharmacy for the rest of my time.
Of course that's just silly, but that's exactly how I felt.
Over time I have never taken any medication for diabetes, but over time my thyroid began to struggle, resulting in my trialling some Levothyroxine a few months back. Once I had built up some Levo in my system I felt better than I had done in an age. I had,( and still have until my doses are correct) some very atypical symptoms, but once I felt better, suddenly quality of life trumped my personal ego hands down.
This may not reflect how anyone else feels or has felt, but whatever we have to deal with, a realisation that something isn't going so well and needs some support can be a disappointment. Some will express that as failure and an easy way of expressing their emotional reaction, but given time, I think most make their own minds up about things.
@James1968 - I do hope you can start to feel better soon, because that feeling of turning a corner from the drudgery of trying to cope with something that isn'tplaying ball (diabetes, thyroid or whatever) is fantastic.