- Messages
- 386
- Type of diabetes
- Type 1
- Treatment type
- Insulin
I am only testing 2 times a day at the moment. My fingertips are actually bruised. I don't know how you guys that have been testing for years do it. Quite frankly I'm worn out from the whole process of it all. I don't seem to have any care left for trying. I do have ptsd so I'm sure at times this doesn't help. I'm eating chocolate and dropped my insulin right down. I'm having a holiday. It seems you just can't win anyway. To high is bad long term trying your best you have lows which I can't cope with at all. I'd rather be high i think. I don't know... I'm a bit low inside at the moment. Worn out. Today I lay on the couch watching movie after movie eating ****. And so glad not to doing anything diabetes related... I think the fight to keep things right has disappeared and I'm not quite sure I can get it back or care too. Sorry. Very negative isn't it... it's pretty lonely being in a fight with your own self... you can't really run away from it either. "Shrugs shoulders"