Knowing where you are, is the first part of finding your way back, to being anywhere near close to where you were.6.9 this woeful Wednesday.
Wet and windy again and again.
This is becoming increasingly depressing.
I have been watching something that reminded me of my feelings, depression and the ensuing anxiety issues
The breakdown.
It wasn't uncomfortable or disturbing.
It was a lesson in coping.
And how far I have come in understanding what and why, I am where I am.
And how much my mood and feelings and thoughts had become better organised and not dominating my day.
And even having the stress of Mrs L, the possibility of not improving, and my own health issues.
I'm believing in myself that I will cope better, but I know it's an if.
I have that bit of confidence returning that was missing for so long, the despondency, the uselessness has all lifted enough for me to tackle this.
My counselling has helped. But I knew all along, it was up to me to get the tools I needed, to sort my head out.
To try and be myself again.
I know I'm not fooling myself, because my attitude has changed and I don't let the anxiety dominate, which it did not too long ago.
I still have anger issues, and life can be so annoying and irritating. As can Mrs L.
I have learned how to help Mrs L and myself. I have learned to be busy, to be a better person and husband etc.
I still have a long road to get where I want to be.
And I just want to express my gratitude to you lot out there giving me the opportunity to vent, can't and put my feelings somewhere. This is so therapeutic, to write this down (type!)
I thank you.
No dream last night.
My bestest wishes to you all this damp day. Another wet Wednesday.
It is a long wet day.
Grrrf.
A quote I heard and I think it fits somehow.Fbg 6.7
My friend cancelled our meeting today with some bad news. Her mother in law was rushed to hospital. But they won't operate and are sending her home today with palliative care, whatever that entails in this case. She is nearly 100.
But I got the message just before bedtime, and I couldn't sleep last night. I know her history because I was asked to research her using Ancestry. Her son, my friend's husband never knew his father, he thought his father was a ne'er do well who had abandoned his pregnant mother. But records showed his father was one of those Chinese Seamen who risked their lives crewing the convoys that helped us defeat Germany, but was betrayed in 1945/6, rounded up by this government, forced on ships with a one way passage in the direction of China. There is a heck of a lot more to this story.
So I was thinking about all that last night, and the injustices done to families who never knew what happened to husbands and fathers.
What I found out brought some measure of peace to my friend's husband, who had spent a lifetime resenting his unknown father, and now has his father's name proudly tattooed on his arm...
Our end comes to all of us at sometime, but sometimes it doesn't feel fair... I know I am being illogical here...
I wasn't fit for anything this morning. Just had a sleep. Now I need to get on with my day.
Wildlife nighttime video
Two Cats & then a Badger
38 secs
Creative...one line squiggle drawing, this lady was walking with her body so far backwards, I don't know how she didn't fall over backwards...
Have your best day, whatever is left of it...
Time for a cuppa before I start my day again...
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That really hit home with what you have written, thanks xKnowing where you are, is the first part of finding your way back, to being anywhere near close to where you were.
No need to be afraid if it's been a while & the landscapes changed.
Time didn't stand still, and nor did we.
but when we dig in, and begin uncovering that core lying beneath the remains of all those bad days and can recognise bits of ourselves, that's a good sign ...a very good sign.
best wishes on your journey back.
if you look back through history, the whole of civilisation is rife with unfair.Fbg 6.7
My friend cancelled our meeting today with some bad news. Her mother in law was rushed to hospital. But they won't operate and are sending her home today with palliative care, whatever that entails in this case. She is nearly 100.
But I got the message just before bedtime, and I couldn't sleep last night. I know her history because I was asked to research her using Ancestry. Her son, my friend's husband never knew his father, he thought his father was a ne'er do well who had abandoned his pregnant mother. But records showed his father was one of those Chinese Seamen who risked their lives crewing the convoys that helped us defeat Germany, but was betrayed in 1945/6, rounded up by this government, forced on ships with a one way passage in the direction of China. There is a heck of a lot more to this story.
So I was thinking about all that last night, and the injustices done to families who never knew what happened to husbands and fathers.
What I found out brought some measure of peace to my friend's husband, who had spent a lifetime resenting his unknown father, and now has his father's name proudly tattooed on his arm...
Our end comes to all of us at sometime, but sometimes it doesn't feel fair... I know I am being illogical here...
I wasn't fit for anything this morning. Just had a sleep. Now I need to get on with my day.
Wildlife nighttime video
Two Cats & then a Badger
38 secs
Creative...one line squiggle drawing, this lady was walking with her body so far backwards, I don't know how she didn't fall over backwards...
Have your best day, whatever is left of it...
Time for a cuppa before I start my day again...
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Once again my friend, your words are so pertinent and I'm honoured and blessed to be in receipt of the reply you have posted.Knowing where you are, is the first part of finding your way back, to being anywhere near close to where you were.
No need to be afraid if it's been a while & the landscapes changed.
Time didn't stand still, and nor did we.
but when we dig in, and begin uncovering that core lying beneath the remains of all those bad days and can recognise bits of ourselves, that's a good sign ...a very good sign.
best wishes on your journey back.
Thank you IanThank you for sharing another great sketch. The hug is for the sad news and how that affected you.
Yes, I agree @dunelmTerrible how some lives are potentially ruined by misinformation. An uncle of mine (his wife was my father’s elder sister) was a Banado’s boy. It was after he died that his daughters, my cousins found that he had a brother who also assumed he was an only child. Smashing sketch - strange posture, wonder if she is in pain.
Yes, it's a good idea to vary the time of day it's measured @JohnEGreen. My blood pressure readings are almost always lower in the morning than in the afternoon and lower still in the evening.My doctor has asked me to check BP twice a day for the next 7 days.
Knowing where you are, is the first part of finding your way back, to being anywhere near close to where you were.
No need to be afraid if it's been a while & the landscapes changed.
Time didn't stand still, and nor did we.
but when we dig in, and begin uncovering that core lying beneath the remains of all those bad days and can recognise bits of ourselves, that's a good sign ...a very good sign.
best wishes on your journey back.
My doctor has asked me to check BP twice a day for the next 7 days this morning was a little higher than usual at 163/95
Well that seems to work well for you. Any sightings of the eclipse?
I hope your day goes well for you Ian...Morning all on a dull start here in Little America on pre-delayed-double bin and drip trip day. I’m just hydrating. I’m just hydrating. No known fbg but 25 gms carb and 7 day average of 20.9 ought to give some measure of control. . Four grandchildren are here today because their schedules - the 11 year old normally has 8 clubs or activities weekly - means they don't see as much of each other now. All 7 grandchildren are scheduled to meet Saturday for a Top Secret meal I have organised to celebrate JKP's 70th. Six days early - her birthday is Priimrose day - Rip Dizzy. My A Level history teacher was a fan of Dizzy and Bizzy. @JohnEGreen are you ok to go with BG there? I am but many report feeling poorly. @Omar51 I too have white coat syndrome - my reading pre-drip today will be outrageous but at home all is good. I hope everyone has a good Thursday.
I have white coat hypertension. Two-Three weeks before my pcp’s appointment, I start taking my BP at home, log and take records to the pcp. My BP is fine in normal range at home. Strange, the doctor's office is high. (nervous or some tension). My pcp asked to bring the BP machine to his office, so he can verify. My BP machine is good.
Hope your BP gets better![emoji256
Thank you @gennepher and thank you for sharing the sketch which I like even if you aren't sure. I think the feedback here will reassure you. In exchange for sharing the sketch and video here's a poem. May work for those finding the times tough, doubting previous beliefs or just liking words. Lave is a new one for me. My faith, the poet's and psalmist's doesn't mean burying one's head in the sand and wandering around with a beatific smile despite obviously awful circumstances. I wonder if reading this before bp is taken would work?. Creatives seem to work for yourself and @dunelm.I hope your day goes well for you Ian...
Thanks Ian...Thank you @gennepher and thank you for sharing the sketch which I like even if you aren't sure. I think the feedback here will reassure you. In axchange for sharing the sketch and video here's a poem. May work for those finding the times tough, doubting previous beliefs or just liking words. Lave is a new one for me. I wonder if reading this before bp is taken would work. Creatives seem to work for yourself and @dunelm.
I have edited the post you quote to make it more reflective of the poet's intention - imho of course.Thanks Ian...
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