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Is anyone else like me? I can have periods of really good control when I am engaged with my diabetes and eat right and test. Then, something can come along such as a holiday, Christmas, a period of stress or being ill, and I make excuses not to test and eat what I like telling myself I'll get back on track 'tomorrow'. Well tomorrow never comes! And then I look back and see I've been out of control for a few weeks before I finally kick myself back into touch.
The latest incident was Christmas. By which I don't mind Christmas day, but the whole build up to Christmas, going out, work xmas drinks/meals out, bought a trolleyfull of whatever food and booze we wanted for Christmas week itself (would not be so bad if it had just been that week), then away to the in laws for new years, more food, more parties, I'll start the diet again next Monday, Monday comes and goes....
I have now had a penny-drop moment, I went to the opticians and she could see some minor retinopathy signs in my eyes, so it has scared me into taking control again.
I just need to find a way not to lose the control. It's not stopping (the bad habits, bad food, lack of testing) that's difficult, it's staying stopped.
I just find it's easy to motivate myself for a little while but not forever. My two pregnancies although difficult physically were psychologically the most motivated I'd ever been as I had someone else on board to protect, and I wish I could feel that motivated again but it's like I get motivation burn-out after a few months. How do I keep it going forever?
The latest incident was Christmas. By which I don't mind Christmas day, but the whole build up to Christmas, going out, work xmas drinks/meals out, bought a trolleyfull of whatever food and booze we wanted for Christmas week itself (would not be so bad if it had just been that week), then away to the in laws for new years, more food, more parties, I'll start the diet again next Monday, Monday comes and goes....
I have now had a penny-drop moment, I went to the opticians and she could see some minor retinopathy signs in my eyes, so it has scared me into taking control again.
I just need to find a way not to lose the control. It's not stopping (the bad habits, bad food, lack of testing) that's difficult, it's staying stopped.
I just find it's easy to motivate myself for a little while but not forever. My two pregnancies although difficult physically were psychologically the most motivated I'd ever been as I had someone else on board to protect, and I wish I could feel that motivated again but it's like I get motivation burn-out after a few months. How do I keep it going forever?