Going in the Wrong Direction

[r o s s c o]

I was read the riot act today by my GP. My Hba1c came back at 115 which is the worst it has been in the 10 years I've been diagnosed as diabetic. And an operation I've been waiting for since my teenage years has been cancelled because of it. Tomorrow was literally supposed to be my pre-op assessment. I am pretty isolated socially; I have mental health issues so my family and friends vanished on me. If i dont makd it to the shops and have small talk at the counter then I dont have any human interaction at all that day. Other than that my entire body is pretty much entirely seized solid. My physio says its the most bizarre case of systemic tightness he has seen. So im left trying to put on socks with bbq tongs amongst a hell of a lot of other little things that just add up and weigh you down until you're drowning. With literally no support or human interaction it's so hard to find tge motivation to even attempt to keep going. Why make an effort to prolong something so lonely and miserable?! It's a nightmare being at war with your own mind constantly. My GP thinks i may be subconsciously selfharming and sabotaging my health so wants me to discuss it with my psychiatrist.

 

[Guzzler]

I am so sorry to hear of your predicament, it must be soul destroying at times.
But on a practical note, have you spoken with your GP about the possibility of getting help from Social Services for your personal needs? The system is at present near breaking point but even if you get a couple of hours a week it is human contact and I know from experience that many carers are really good at with encouraging people to broaden their horizons.

 

[Runica]

Hi rossco, I'm sorry I can't help, only you can get the ball rolling. I second Guzzler and your GP. Is it possible your psychiatrist could refer you to a Health Care Assistant in the local Community Mental Health Team?

HCAs do a lot of different work with different clients. I worked in one of these teams and we had one guy who would do all the fresh air and fitness stuff (he was ex army and ex prison service and very much in demand) and another who would do the snooker hall and cinema type stuff. Health care assistants are qualified, experienced professionals, but they can also take you shopping!

I do hope you can get a swift appointment, and make it count.

Sending virtual hugs.

 

[Ragmar]

Welcome to the forum @r o s s c o !
I'm only a month in with my diagnosis and I know there'll be rainy days ahead but I just want to say your already a hero of mine, a 10 year vet. Like you I know isolation, I'm presently laid off from work and my mind bounces off the walls in my bedroom but this forum helped me out a lot because it allowed me to express those thoughts. I try my best not to stay indoors for too long because Spring is starting and the sun broke through the clouds just now (It's 12.16pm here in Canada)

I'm sorry that I can't offer you more then words of comfort, but please speak with the psychiatrist and I wish you the best in your management and care.

 

[Resurgam]

Hello and welcome to the club no one wants to join.
For many type twos the main problem, and solution to their diabetes is their diet and he amount of carbohydrate they eat each day - the less carb the lower the blood glucose and the lower the Ha1c, some lucky ones, like me, get into the normal ranges - if you feel up to it perhaps you could tell us what the typical day's menu would be like - and perhaps we can poit to some changes you might make to start back down to a more normal Hba1c and so get you that operation.

 

[AdamJames]

I was read the riot act today by my GP. My Hba1c came back at 115 which is the worst it has been in the 10 years I've been diagnosed as diabetic. And an operation I've been waiting for since my teenage years has been cancelled because of it. Tomorrow was literally supposed to be my pre-op assessment. I am pretty isolated socially; I have mental health issues so my family and friends vanished on me. If i dont makd it to the shops and have small talk at the counter then I dont have any human interaction at all that day. Other than that my entire body is pretty much entirely seized solid. My physio says its the most bizarre case of systemic tightness he has seen. So im left trying to put on socks with bbq tongs amongst a hell of a lot of other little things that just add up and weigh you down until you're drowning. With literally no support or human interaction it's so hard to find tge motivation to even attempt to keep going. Why make an effort to prolong something so lonely and miserable?! It's a nightmare being at war with your own mind constantly. My GP thinks i may be subconsciously selfharming and sabotaging my health so wants me to discuss it with my psychiatrist.

It may well be that your GP is onto something. As are you - you mention social isolation as part of the problem, presumably that observation comes from you rather than your GP?

You are probably in better company that you think

We all need a sense of purpose. A lot of people are lucky, they've found love, have children, and as soon as they wake up in the morning, they have a reason to stay alive and work on any health issues they have.

All I can suggest is to try something different in life. Are you well enough to join a club? I'm thinking of doing something like that myself. If you are anything like me, meeting people is somewhere between unappealing and terrifying. But if you are honest with people you meet, or get drunk (same thing?) the results can be surprising. "I use tongs to put my socks on" is a pretty cool ice-breaker.

 

[CherryAA]

I was read the riot act today by my GP. My Hba1c came back at 115 which is the worst it has been in the 10 years I've been diagnosed as diabetic. And an operation I've been waiting for since my teenage years has been cancelled because of it. Tomorrow was literally supposed to be my pre-op assessment. I am pretty isolated socially; I have mental health issues so my family and friends vanished on me. If i dont makd it to the shops and have small talk at the counter then I dont have any human interaction at all that day. Other than that my entire body is pretty much entirely seized solid. My physio says its the most bizarre case of systemic tightness he has seen. So im left trying to put on socks with bbq tongs amongst a hell of a lot of other little things that just add up and weigh you down until you're drowning. With literally no support or human interaction it's so hard to find tge motivation to even attempt to keep going. Why make an effort to prolong something so lonely and miserable?! It's a nightmare being at war with your own mind constantly. My GP thinks i may be subconsciously selfharming and sabotaging my health so wants me to discuss it with my psychiatrist.

When you are feeling isolated at home, the internet can be a cool place to make a few freinds, this forum is great for that. With an a1c at that level it is no wonder you feel like things have seized up, at 92 I felt like I was walking through a sea of molasses. Have you tried the low carb high fat food route yet? Its amazing just how quickly that can make a difference. Take a look a the various low carb diets suggestions around. I picked bacon and eggs and cooked using butter and just ate that for a few days - worked a treat for a start.

 

[DCUKMod]

I was read the riot act today by my GP. My Hba1c came back at 115 which is the worst it has been in the 10 years I've been diagnosed as diabetic. And an operation I've been waiting for since my teenage years has been cancelled because of it. Tomorrow was literally supposed to be my pre-op assessment. I am pretty isolated socially; I have mental health issues so my family and friends vanished on me. If i dont makd it to the shops and have small talk at the counter then I dont have any human interaction at all that day. Other than that my entire body is pretty much entirely seized solid. My physio says its the most bizarre case of systemic tightness he has seen. So im left trying to put on socks with bbq tongs amongst a hell of a lot of other little things that just add up and weigh you down until you're drowning. With literally no support or human interaction it's so hard to find tge motivation to even attempt to keep going. Why make an effort to prolong something so lonely and miserable?! It's a nightmare being at war with your own mind constantly. My GP thinks i may be subconsciously selfharming and sabotaging my health so wants me to discuss it with my psychiatrist.

Hi there Rossco - it sounds like you're going through a rough time at the moment, with your diabetes. You must be bitterly disappointed about your operation; which is very understandable. Unfortunately, you're not alone in finding your op needs to be delayed, due to an elevated HbA1c. We do see it fairly regularly.

In terms of support, what's available locally to any given member is usually a bit of a postcode lottery I'm afraid, and of course we don't all want the same things.

This site has a whole load of support areas - whether you're looking for information on your diabetes or just people to talk to. Our General Chat area has music and footie threads, as well as jokes and general chit-chat. General Chat is here: https://www.diabetes.co.uk/forum/category/general-chat.5/

The Games area is here: https://www.diabetes.co.uk/forum/category/forum-games.66/

And the Jokes and Humour area, here: https://www.diabetes.co.uk/forum/category/jokes-and-humour.37/

In terms of managing your T2 and trying to assist you wrangle your diabetes into a better place, for your op, just start threads and ask questions.

For most T2s, we find it's important to manage what we eat, but I wouldn't like to make any suggestions before understanding both what sort of medications you might be taking, and what you like to eat at the moment.

 

[Liam1955]

Welcome @r o s s c o to the Forum .

Have you thought about contacting MIND ? If you go online you will see what they can offer.