Ketones 1.1 at midday, sugars 5.2.
Then I broke the fast - no real reason, I wasn't hungry or feeling wobbly, I just weakened somehow - but I just had tuna mayonnaise and a salad at that point, so I kept it low carb.
Then later, I lapsed - I won't post the details, but it's a bad one. I'm not sure what led to this but I wanted to post it because I'm determined not to slink off and go back into denial, so I'm posting failure as well as success.
Maybe it was the few days of stricter low-carb, maybe it was because my weight has dropped a bit, and I always used to rebound after a couple of stones lost in the past.
It might be that the tuna caused an insulin response - I notice that my sugars don't go as low if I've had tuna. Shame, I love it!
Or, it might just be that I am still gripped by a powerful sugar addiction. I felt like I did in the past, that I wouldn't get full, I wouldn't feel satisfied. It's a bit frightening.
Whatever it is, I'm determined that this time will be different - I am picking up, dusting off and going again. One binge isn't going to ruin the hard work, just set it back a bit.
The most motivating thing, the thing I'm really hanging on to, is that this way of eating isn't a diet, it doesn't make me miserable and although I lapse, I don't feel the intense guilt and shame that I used to feel with falling off the diet wagons in the past. It's maybe because as a way of eating this makes me feel good, so I'm always happy to get back to it.