The further I go down this path the more powerful I feel.
I control my food.
I control my exercise
I have lost a load of weight
I have my bg under tight control (between 4 and 6 regardless of meals)
All I need to do to realise how good the place I am in now is to look, today shopping. The lumps with obvious weight issues piling their trollies with what amounted to sugar, the people thinking low fat cream is healthy (its just watered down cream with thickeners and sweeteners, blurgh).
I hold my head high, I look good, feel good, more importantly I feel strong and healthy. It may be seen as sanctimonious by some but I consider the day I was diagnosed as one of the most pivotal (for the better) days in my life. If only it had been sooner.
I have NOTHING to be embarrassed or ashamed of, I am living WITH my body now not forcing it to do strange things and its repaying that faith in spades.
You have joined a intelligent and very enlightened group being part of this forum, be empowered. No guilt. The people who should feel guilt are those that don't embrace the wonderful machine given to them by nature, we only get to use it for a bit before nature has it back and recycles it for somebody else. I aim to enjoy it.
I wish you well, be proud. Enjoy your food and enjoy your body, we only get one.