Hi
@Shann3079 Big hugs lovely I know how this can grind you down. Can you tell us what specifically is getting you down ?
I'll be coming up for 8 years next January, I have to admit there's been lots of highs/lows, pretty much like my daily blood glucose graph..
Unfortunately running high is going to make you feel low, your not able to think clearly when you have excess glucose in your blood and so getting you down into single figures should be your priority. Have you done any courses for your type 1, so EXPERT or DAFNE ? Can you buy a copy of 'Think like a pancreas' which is written by a type 1 so it's advice is excellent to help you learn more ?
A good friend said to me once about t1 is that living with this our mental cup is pretty much full most of the time, then add 'life' into the mix and the cup can easily run over, it's quite hard explaining this to anyone else without this condition though as it can be so consuming, and particularly when your levels are all over the shop too. We have to be kind to ourselves and just take a breath when things aren't working out, i've found having a diversion has helped me - so mine is exercising as it gives me freedom from thinking about this.
It's easy for health care professionals to think we are suffering an eating disorder though if you aren't, because the simple impact of managing carbs eaten with insulin doses and fluctuating glucose levels means it's easier to restrict the diet than deal with the management of insulin, I know a few people who eat very restricted diets because they cannot manage their glucose levels, so please have an open conversation with the specialist about how you are managing as they may help with a diet plan.
Happy to chat on PM too if you need to