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- Type of diabetes
- Type 1
- Treatment type
- Insulin
- Dislikes
- Football, Rugby, Sweede, Parsnips, Beetroot
So I’m bassically struggiling. It’s not just what I’ve explained before the recent incidents in town and well with them being young I’m afraid of this week as it’s half term. I’ve stopped controlling my diabeties because it’s my way of self harming. Im also. Yesterday I ended up damaging peoples cars because I had to do something physical. The thing is every time I get an incident and struggle to just ignore it unless it’s cycling because it reminds me of when in my childhood in other counties before I moved to England. I used to get called names and hit by my dad. Even though I’m not living with him when someone calls me a name it does anything physical it reminds me of that and why my older brother doesn’t speak to and i just have to do something otherwise I’ll end up getting physical. Things is also worry how he’s treating my half brother in the Netherlands as he’s 6 the same age it started to me. Even still when I occasionally see him. My half brother wants to spend more time with the dog my dad has or me and only with my dad when he has too. My dad has apologized but I don’t think he means it because he still complains at everything I do when I’m not doing anything wrong.
I just can’t stop myself doing soemthing physical because of reminders. I’m afraid if I don’t stop this I’ll end up doing something stupid or get arrested.
I just can’t stop myself doing soemthing physical because of reminders. I’m afraid if I don’t stop this I’ll end up doing something stupid or get arrested.