What was your fasting blood glucose? (full on chat)

[jjraak]

Thank you Krystyna23040 I tried Halloumi chips but I didn’t like them I found the alternative vegetables online tried them and couldn’t believe it only raised my BG by one unit so I will be using the vegetable substitute from now on. K

A win for experimenting and finding what works .
The joy of the early time after DX,. Checking out the weird & wonderful selection I wasn't aware of or had ignored my whole life

Celeriac, worked here too

Bit of a faff to cut & prep.
Liking the cut and freeze technique

Oddly that hadn't occurred to me.

I'm always wary of how to cook from frozen.

And the idea of defrosting before cooking for me ends up:
A. A mushy mess once cooked.
B. A delightful medley of cooked/uncooked

as some melts in the mouth, while other bits thaw out...lol.

Shall try your method & report back .

 

[jjraak]

Hi.
Long post.

Skip to the end ..all explained .

I'd add the last few days FBG. But I didn't do any on waking, tbh
And I'd add in anything of interest over the last few days...

But it's been same old, same old
4 walls wake, eat sleep , repeat

Getting myself a little down if I'm honest
Normally I bounce back from setbacks, but this feels harder.


Sure I'm not alone in masking some things and trying to stay up beat, around others

It's not all about me, Lauren has her struggles too, bless her.

Anyway other night , Lauren tells me she feels off, all tearful over nothing in particular.

I hug her. Kiss her, tell her she'll be ok
In a moment of weakness and sharing I tell her it's a normal feeling.

"Oh, you cry too ? "..she asked

Silly me..

She'd slipped from poor damsel in distress into detective mode, seemlessly,
and now sees a chance to do that couple thing of "opening up & showing your feelings"...
and I hadn't noticed..

so blind sided, ..yep, I caved.

"What makes you cry, then ?"

Anything & nothing..I confess

So I tell her I tear up at the slightest thing .
It's Causing me a little concern & I can't put my finger on what or why

"That's a sign of depression" she says

And with that, a warning light goes on.

She sits me down to chat.

It's more her area of expertise, so I listen.

We agree it's a little like grief...and that makes good sense...it has been THE worst moment to affect me physically, that wasn't hurt over someone else

( I keep bring told how big this all was, how lucky I was, etc so much damage...but a life or death situation..I don't think so now, but very scary.

So either had the worst trip ever, from the ketamine administered roadside or Yep, that bright light was leading me away forever .and THAT has left its mark "

So confusion reigns at times, inside this old head of mine.

I do remember feeling similar, after dad passing (Rip)
Where the silliest news item, or moment would have me biting back a tear .

And it fits the mood of late.
So, i.spoke to doctor, made an appointment to speak to someone, a few weeks wait, but I made the first step.

On talking I mentioned, to stop it being a rerun of previous & taking space from someone who may urgently need it

About the CBT I had before,...?
She says while helpful, this is different.

This, she says is more about PTSD,
(a scary sounding name for a traffic accident.)
Something I normally asociate with a war zone, etc.

So a little perturbed ? .
( Searching for the right word here, and drawing a blank.)..that I'm being referred to a professional for that.

Anyway ..

I find writing things down, cathartic
Clears some confusion in my thinking
And looking back now, it all does make some sense

Lots of form filling, accident reports, etc of late
Much rewinding of those moments, ..
And the awfulness of what might have been.............

Keeps me awake, most nights, as some may guess from my post times.

Anyway..Thank you all for giving me the space to clear my thoughts.
Been useful just to write it down, somewhere .

Tl;dr,........
No worries.
Seem to have lost my favourite half full cup .

Bound to be here, somewhere.


Hope for the brightest of days for you all.

 

[gennepher]

Hi.
Long post.

Skip to the end ..all explained .

I'd add the last few days FBG. But I didn't do any on waking, tbh
And I'd add in anything of interest over the last few days...

But it's been same old, same old
4 walls wake, eat sleep , repeat

Getting myself a little down if I'm honest
Normally I bounce back from setbacks, but this feels harder.


Sure I'm not alone in masking some things and trying to stay up beat, around others

It's not all about me, Lauren has her struggles too, bless her.

Anyway other night , Lauren tells me she feels off, all tearful over nothing in particular.

I hug her. Kiss her, tell her she'll be ok
In a moment of weakness and sharing I tell her it's a normal feeling.

"Oh, you cry too ? "..she asked

Silly me..

She'd slipped from poor damsel in distress into detective mode, seemlessly,
and now sees a chance to do that couple thing of "opening up & showing your feelings"...
and I hadn't noticed..

so blind sided, ..yep, I caved.

"What makes you cry, then ?"

Anything & nothing..I confess

So I tell her I tear up at the slightest thing .
It's Causing me a little concern & I can't put my finger on what or why

"That's a sign of depression" she says

And with that, a warning light goes on.

She sits me down to chat.

It's more her area of expertise, so I listen.

We agree it's a little like grief...and that makes good sense...it has been THE worst moment to affect me physically, that wasn't hurt over someone else

( I keep bring told how big this all was, how lucky I was, etc so much damage...but a life or death situation..I don't think so now, but very scary.

So either had the worst trip ever, from the ketamine administered roadside or Yep, that bright light was leading me away forever .and THAT has left its mark "

So confusion reigns at times, inside this old head of mine.

I do remember feeling similar, after dad passing (Rip)
Where the silliest news item, or moment would have me biting back a tear .

And it fits the mood of late.
So, i.spoke to doctor, made an appointment to speak to someone, a few weeks wait, but I made the first step.

On talking I mentioned, to stop it being a rerun of previous & taking space from someone who may urgently need it

About the CBT I had before,...?
She says while helpful, this is different.

This, she says is more about PTSD,
(a scary sounding name for a traffic accident.)
Something I normally asociate with a war zone, etc.

So a little perturbed ? .
( Searching for the right word here, and drawing a blank.)..that I'm being referred to a professional for that.

Anyway ..

I find writing things down, cathartic
Clears some confusion in my thinking
And looking back now, it all does make some sense

Lots of form filling, accident reports, etc of late
Much rewinding of those moments, ..
And the awfulness of what might have been.............

Keeps me awake, most nights, as some may guess from my post times.

Anyway..Thank you all for giving me the space to clear my thoughts.
Been useful just to write it down, somewhere .

Tl;dr,........
No worries.
Seem to have lost my favourite half full cup .

Bound to be here, somewhere.


Hope for the brightest of days for you all.

I want to give you a hug as well as a winner because I think both are applicable @jjraak

Now, stop that nonsense of '...& taking space from someone who may urgently need it'.
If you are floundering (or drowning) at sea, you need a little help to get to the shore's edge, whether it be a lifeboat with others aboard, or whether it be a lone swimmer passing you in your time of need. And your arm is around their neck to keep you afloat while you both try to reach the shore. Then once you have your feet on solid ground again, your cup will be more than half full again.

Writing things down on all this is very important, it helps to work things out towards clearing your mind, and laying things to rest. That bright golden light is a beautiful place to go to, but it is nowhere near your time yet...

So write, write, and write, whether it be on here or in a private journal.
We will read.
So, hugs for the winner (which is you).
♡♡♡

 

[jjraak]

I want to give you a hug as well as a winner because I think both are applicable @jjraak

Now, stop that nonsense of '...& taking space from someone who may urgently need it'.
If you are floundering (or drowning) at sea, you need a little help to get to the shore's edge, whether it be a lifeboat with others aboard, or whether it be a lone swimmer passing you in your time of need. And your arm is around their neck to keep you afloat while you both try to reach the shore. Then once you have your feet on solid ground again, your cup will be more than half full again.

Writing things down on all this is very important, it helps to work things out towards clearing your mind, and laying things to rest. That bright golden light is a beautiful place to go to, but it is nowhere near your time yet...

So write, write, and write, whether it be on here or in a private journal.
We will read.
So, hugs for the winner (which is you).
♡♡♡

Most grateful. @gennepher
"No more nonsense"

Wise words.

 

[karen8967]

5.7 for me

 

[dunelm]

Hi.
Long post.

Skip to the end ..all explained .

I'd add the last few days FBG. But I didn't do any on waking, tbh
And I'd add in anything of interest over the last few days...

But it's been same old, same old
4 walls wake, eat sleep , repeat

Getting myself a little down if I'm honest
Normally I bounce back from setbacks, but this feels harder.


Sure I'm not alone in masking some things and trying to stay up beat, around others

It's not all about me, Lauren has her struggles too, bless her.

Anyway other night , Lauren tells me she feels off, all tearful over nothing in particular.

I hug her. Kiss her, tell her she'll be ok
In a moment of weakness and sharing I tell her it's a normal feeling.

"Oh, you cry too ? "..she asked

Silly me..

She'd slipped from poor damsel in distress into detective mode, seemlessly,
and now sees a chance to do that couple thing of "opening up & showing your feelings"...
and I hadn't noticed..

so blind sided, ..yep, I caved.

"What makes you cry, then ?"

Anything & nothing..I confess

So I tell her I tear up at the slightest thing .
It's Causing me a little concern & I can't put my finger on what or why

"That's a sign of depression" she says

And with that, a warning light goes on.

She sits me down to chat.

It's more her area of expertise, so I listen.

We agree it's a little like grief...and that makes good sense...it has been THE worst moment to affect me physically, that wasn't hurt over someone else

( I keep bring told how big this all was, how lucky I was, etc so much damage...but a life or death situation..I don't think so now, but very scary.

So either had the worst trip ever, from the ketamine administered roadside or Yep, that bright light was leading me away forever .and THAT has left its mark "

So confusion reigns at times, inside this old head of mine.

I do remember feeling similar, after dad passing (Rip)
Where the silliest news item, or moment would have me biting back a tear .

And it fits the mood of late.
So, i.spoke to doctor, made an appointment to speak to someone, a few weeks wait, but I made the first step.

On talking I mentioned, to stop it being a rerun of previous & taking space from someone who may urgently need it

About the CBT I had before,...?
She says while helpful, this is different.

This, she says is more about PTSD,
(a scary sounding name for a traffic accident.)
Something I normally asociate with a war zone, etc.

So a little perturbed ? .
( Searching for the right word here, and drawing a blank.)..that I'm being referred to a professional for that.

Anyway ..

I find writing things down, cathartic
Clears some confusion in my thinking
And looking back now, it all does make some sense

Lots of form filling, accident reports, etc of late
Much rewinding of those moments, ..
And the awfulness of what might have been.............

Keeps me awake, most nights, as some may guess from my post times.

Anyway..Thank you all for giving me the space to clear my thoughts.
Been useful just to write it down, somewhere .

Tl;dr,........
No worries.
Seem to have lost my favourite half full cup .

Bound to be here, somewhere.


Hope for the brightest of days for you all.

Hugs and wins and pleased that you liked the tree. PTSD - certainly you have been in a battle zone and writing things down will definitely help - crucially. Battle Shock - and the way through it was the birth of PTSD treatment. Work from before the accident, go through whatever of the trauma that you can remember, move forward to now and then think about your plans for the future - well that’s the basis -mend your body, mend your mind. All the very best, others, more qualified will help.

 

[dunelm]

5.7 for me

Nice

 

[dunelm]

Good morning everyone from a drizzly start here in the dark and dangerous north. It’s not supposed to be raining until 8am but the local climate didn’t get the memo. Mrs Miggins has just taken the girl in the bubble over to nursery - 5 minutes in the car.
Winter Olympics - interesting lessons in physics. We have moved from single bob at 120kph to twin bob at 135kph and must wonder about what comes with the 4’s - reminds me of those questions; ‘a mass of 400kg sits on a slope with an angle…’
Art bit - back to a large, sized sheet of rice paper. Hope your day is a good one. Time for a koffy.

 

[alf_Josiah]

Good Morening Ladies and Gentlemen and all who are suffering, a problem shared is a problem halved.
A 5.2 this morning on that meter of misdirection.
@jjraak well done on taking the path to recovery, as Dunelm said there are others more qualified to provide guidance and help, me and me’s can provide the path too insanity, poor grammar, misspellings and other 3rd childhood amusements. Just pm if you want.

Disaster darlings, disaster here in Tilehurst Towers today. Doing another covid test at this moment prior to yet more blood tests this morning, warfarin and liver function tests, the medics can never have enough liver function tests, me, me’s and myself are in the guinepig wheel, but that’s not the worst, Mrs J has decreed that I must undergo a beard cut and hair trim….argh
Now sorry fellow posters and painters it’s time to make the first of many koffies today.
Stay safe all, stay apart etc etc etc.

 

[gennepher]

Fbg 6.9


My car's Sat Nav went doolally yesterday morning. It worked fine to the local shops. I don't use it as such, but I leave it always on because we get a lots of roadworks detours round here, and this means I can glance at the visual map in front of me, and know know instantly I can take a better route for me.

However, coming home from the shops the Sat Nav screen was black, this has Sat Nav and other of the car's functions on it. It has been very cold so, I thought it was having a little hiccup and would right itself.

Ah, good I thought when it decided to hiccup itself back into life. But when it finally lit up properly, and the Sat Nav came on, the little red arrow which normally stays on the road you are driving on had gone completely bananas.

It was not on the road at all, but the red arrow was wandering through parkland, meadowland, through houses, wandering up streams, and wandered away from the road I perceived I was driving on.

I tried to turn the Sat Nav off, but the screen was not responsive.

I was transfixed watching it. I was experiencing dissonance with the red arrow showing me where it thinks my car is driving, and me driving on a hard tarmac road 'knowing' that I am driving the correct route home.

I am driving up a hill by now. At least that is my perception of my route home. But then the red arrow turns around and wanders here and there towards the river. Then the red arrow takes a left turn and it's going up on the railway line. My brain goes OMG you're going to meet the Holyhead train. But before that disaster happens, the red arrow does a sharp right and aims for the river. And accordingly to my Sat Nav I am now driving on water now...

According to my visual perception of things, I am still on a hard road, and have got to the top of my hill, and am turning right into my road. It is very disconcerting positioning my car so that I can back into my driveway, because the red arrow on the Sat Nav is still showing me doing a 3 point turn on the river.

I turn the engine off, wait a few minutes, then turn it on again. The red arrow is still not where I perceive my car to be. I move forward a few feet, and then the Sat Nav red arrow does a right turn, wanders through a hawthorn hedge, and into the ancient meadowlands at the end of my road...

I turn the engine off, tentatively put one foot outside the car, because my brain is considering alternative universes by now...

I have no idea if there is a malfunction yet or a magnetic disturbance which surely would affect the sat nav and directional arrow. My internet is playing up a lot as well.

And I am thinking of cars controlled by computers or self driving cars. I think human error over computer error would have a greater safety aspect to it...

I googled my car's Sat Nav, but it is an integral part of the car. So, I cannot do a reset myself.

I have checked on my car this morning. It is still in my driveway (I did wonder when I looked out of the window). I turned the engine on. The Sat Nav screen came on, and the red arrow was not in what I perceive to be my driveway by my bungalow. It was still wandering around the pond in the ancient meadowlands. I have no idea what this car has been up to in the night.

It took me over 3 hours in the early hours this morning to figure out how to do this morning's 'painting'.

So here is a representation of yesterday's adventures with the red arrow on the Sat Nav parking me on water...

 

[gennepher]

Good morning everyone from a drizzly start here in the dark and dangerous north. It’s not supposed to be raining until 8am but the local climate didn’t get the memo. Mrs Miggins has just taken the girl in the bubble over to nursery - 5 minutes in the car.
Winter Olympics - interesting lessons in physics. We have moved from single bob at 120kph to twin bob at 135kph and must wonder about what comes with the 4’s - reminds me of those questions; ‘a mass of 400kg sits on a slope with an angle…’
Art bit - back to a large, sized sheet of rice paper. Hope your day is a good one. Time for a koffy.


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Sadly outside in my garden didn't get the blue skied sunny weather app memo either, and we have dull grey and rain @dunelm
That large piece of rice paper is magnificent. I can feel the freedom of the brushstrokes within it.

 

[gennepher]

Good Morening Ladies and Gentlemen and all who are suffering, a problem shared is a problem halved.
A 5.2 this morning on that meter of misdirection.
@jjraak well done on taking the path to recovery, as Dunelm said there are others more qualified to provide guidance and help, me and me’s can provide the path too insanity, poor grammar, misspellings and other 3rd childhood amusements. Just pm if you want.

Disaster darlings, disaster here in Tilehurst Towers today. Doing another covid test at this moment prior to yet more blood tests this morning, warfarin and liver function tests, the medics can never have enough liver function tests, me, me’s and myself are in the guinepig wheel, but that’s not the worst, Mrs J has decreed that I must undergo a beard cut and hair trim….argh
Now sorry fellow posters and painters it’s time to make the first of many koffies today.
Stay safe all, stay apart etc etc etc.

I clicked funny emojie, but I also need to give you a hug for everything @alf_Josiah especially that dreaded beard cut and haircut trim, presumably performed by the infamous Mrs J.
Enjoy your peaceful coffee Alf....

 

[ianpspurs]

Greetings everyone. So it is February in UK and the weather is grey and cold, who'da thunk it? Moving on. Thanks for sharing the artwork @gennepher and @dunelm wonderful gift you both have. @Krystyna23040 yesterday sounds amazing I'm so pleased for you and Archie. @jjraak a journey of a thousand miles starts with one step and it is always the hardest IMHO. Professional help and advice is essential - did you feel the surgeons/nurses etc had more deserving cases to deal with? @alf_Josiah I hope all goes well for you today and the results are everything you want from the liver issues and Mrs A J wants from the hirsuite issues. The gym and valentines day meal yesterday were both excellent. Around 45 gms carb yesterday - 36 from an M and S Billionaire's pot. Very Mastermind - I've started so I'll finish. I can't subscribe to the idea that such food becomes too sweet or isn't food - how can one take people seriously after such lazy arguments?. Classic of its genre and no LC swap does the same job. I think we are programmed to seek sweet tastes from time to time. There I said it so shoot me. Ms Z P is 1 today - 0 to 1 in a year. Bye for now.

 

[dunelm]

Fbg 6.9


My car's Sat Nav went doolally yesterday morning. It worked fine to the local shops. I don't use it as such, but I leave it always on because we get a lots of roadworks detours round here, and this means I can glance at the visual map in front of me, and know know instantly I can take a better route for me.

However, coming home from the shops the Sat Nav screen was black, this has Sat Nav and other of the car's functions on it. It has been very cold so, I thought it was having a little hiccup and would right itself.

Ah, good I thought when it decided to hiccup itself back into life. But when it finally lit up properly, and the Sat Nav came on, the little red arrow which normally stays on the road you are driving on had gone completely bananas.

It was not on the road at all, but the red arrow was wandering through parkland, meadowland, through houses, wandering up streams, and wandered away from the road I perceived I was driving on.

I tried to turn the Sat Nav off, but the screen was not responsive.

I was transfixed watching it. I was experiencing dissonance with the red arrow showing me where it thinks my car is driving, and me driving on a hard tarmac road 'knowing' that I am driving the correct route home.

I am driving up a hill by now. At least that is my perception of my route home. But then the red arrow turns around and wanders here and there towards the river. Then the red arrow takes a left turn and it's going up on the railway line. My brain goes OMG you're going to meet the Holyhead train. But before that disaster happens, the red arrow does a sharp right and aims for the river. And accordingly to my Sat Nav I am now driving on water now...

According to my visual perception of things, I am still on a hard road, and have got to the top of my hill, and am turning right into my road. It is very disconcerting positioning my car so that I can back into my driveway, because the red arrow on the Sat Nav is still showing me doing a 3 point turn on the river.

I turn the engine off, wait a few minutes, then turn it on again. The red arrow is still not where I perceive my car to be. I move forward a few feet, and then the Sat Nav red arrow does a right turn, wanders through a hawthorn hedge, and into the ancient meadowlands at the end of my road...

I turn the engine off, tentatively put one foot outside the car, because my brain is considering alternative universes by now...

I have no idea if there is a malfunction yet or a magnetic disturbance which surely would affect the sat nav and directional arrow. My internet is playing up a lot as well.

And I am thinking of cars controlled by computers or self driving cars. I think human error over computer error would have a greater safety aspect to it...

I googled my car's Sat Nav, but it is an integral part of the car. So, I cannot do a reset myself.

I have checked on my car this morning. It is still in my driveway (I did wonder when I looked out of the window). I turned the engine on. The Sat Nav screen came on, and the red arrow was not in what I perceive to be my driveway by my bungalow. It was still wandering around the pond in the ancient meadowlands. I have no idea what this car has been up to in the night.

It took me over 3 hours in the early hours this morning to figure out how to do this morning's 'painting'.

So here is a representation of yesterday's adventures with the red arrow on the Sat Nav parking me on water...

View attachment 53393

Smashing visual interpretation of satnav in alternative universe. It could of course be due to weather - a satnav needs to ‘see’ three or more satellites to get an accurate fix. What will we all do when satellites fail or fall out of the sky?

 

[dunelm]

Sadly outside in my garden didn't get the blue skied sunny weather app memo either, and we have dull grey and rain @dunelm
That large piece of rice paper is magnificent. I can feel the freedom of the brushstrokes within it.

Thank you @gennepher, I didn’t really think about what I was doing with this one

 

[dunelm]

Greetings everyone. So it is February in UK and the weather is grey and cold, who'da thunk it? Moving on. Thanks for sharing the artwork @gennepher and @dunelm wonderful gift you both have. @Krystyna23040 yesterday sounds amazing I'm so pleased for you and Archie. @jjraak a journey of a thousand miles starts with one step and it always the hardest IMHO. Professional help and advice is essential - did you feel the surgeons/nurses etc had more deserving cases to deal with? @alf_Josiah I hope all goes well for you today and the results are everything you want from the liver issues and Mrs A J wants from the hirsuite issues. The gym and valentines day meal yesterday were both excellent. Around 45 gns carb yesterday - 36 from an M and S Billionaire's pot. Very Mastermind - I've started so I'll finish. I can't subscribe to the idea that such food becomes too sweet or isn't food - how can one take people seriously after such lazy argumets?. Classic of its genre and no LC swap does the same job and I think we are programmed to seek sweet tastes from time to time. There I said it so shoot me. Ms Z P is 1 today - 0 to 1 in a year. Bye for now.

Thank you @ianpspurs - it keeps me sane (or so I have been told).

 

[Krystyna23040]

yesterday sounds amazing I'm so pleased for you and Archie

Yes @ianpspurs yesterday was an amazing day. We are so happy that Archie doesn't have cancer.

 

[Krystyna23040]

I think we are programmed to seek sweet tastes from time to time.

I do agree @ianpspurs. I have sometimes noticed that I get cravings for inulin and I am sure that it is the sweetness that I crave.

 

[gennepher]

Smashing visual interpretation of satnav in alternative universe. It could of course be due to weather - a satnav needs to ‘see’ three or more satellites to get an accurate fix. What will we all do when satellites fail or fall out of the sky?

Ah, thanks. I did not know that @dunelm
Satellites then, do have potential for various vulnerabilities...
Thanks for the compliment.

 

[Krystyna23040]

Sounds a great day out, topped off by the unexpected good news ..how lovely to hear .

@jjraak it was so lovely to get the unexpected good news yesterday.