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gennepher said:
I would call that the art of meditation @Krystyna23040
There is no right or wrong way to meditate, or how you should feel. I am glad my written words take you further into that dimension....
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Thank you @gennepher. I always knew that being in nature (and looking at photos and pictures of nature) was important for my mental health, but until now I hadn't realised that what I was experiencing was actually meditation.

I think that your written words taking me deeper into that dimension was a lightbulb moment.
 
gennepher said:
I waited another couple of hours , and during that time another nurse came along and said you're waiting a long time we can't have you passing out. You must have something to eat. I am sure I didn't look that bad. And she brought me a tuna sandwich and a hot cup of tea. It was very welcome.

So a different specialist, the head man called me in this time and said he's very sorry and that they couldn't get the machine working or new one hadn't come in yet ...

And then he was pushing it very hard for me to have the cataract operation on my second eye, and I said well why are you pushing this? And he said well don't you want perfect vision? I can give you perfect vision in that eye. And I'm thinking those are big promises from anyone. I said no not at this moment of time, and I said to the other gentleman that he would send me, and he agreed that he would send me a an appointment for six months time and we will discuss it then.

So the main specialist said we are going to send for you in four months (so now I have lost two months of my thinking consideration time on this). And he immediately launches in well I can put you down for the cataract operation now. And I said that's not what I agreed to, but since you're going to send me an appointment in four months time I will now agree to that appointment in four months time and we discuss it then. I've never seen anybody so disappointed..

I feel like he wants bodies on the tables in the operating theatre show what a successful surgeon he is and how many operations his team does et cetera et cetera and I'm sure it's about figures and funding .

So I said to cap what we agreed to, was an appointment letter for 4 months time, and he was going to discuss it again with me about having the other eye done with a new cataract, and I said well where does this scan fit in that you cannot do today? Oh, it's nothing to worry about he said. It's just the other man saw us in your eye and want to investigate it further. And I said what was it he wanted to to investigate further.. nothing to worry about came the reply from the specialist.

Now I remembered that the other man had said that it was a nerve ending in my left eye on the left side at the back of the eye . So I repeated that to the main specialist. And I said I presume that is what you were looking at. Why are you looking at it? He said at that point, the main specialist, that he wanted to keep an eye on it to see if it changed but it was alright because the other gentleman had written the report what he could see with his naked eye. And they would take that scan in four months time.

He is determined, I'm going to have that cataract operation on the other eye.
I can't remember if I've said, I am sure I did that on the eye that had the cataract operation couple of months ago is absolutely perfect 20/10 vision no need for glasses whatsoever for the operation today. The specialist said that.

But the eye that was not operated on only (!!!!!) has 20/20 vision I think it's always been like this. So that is pretty good eyesight anyway and I said that to the specialist and he put his elbows on his knees I think, and leaned forward, but don't you want perfect vision in both eyes he said. Who wouldn't want perfect vision in both eyes? He said.

My thought about this is why risk something, because all operations are a risk at the end of the day when you've got something that's pretty good anyway . Specialist did not agree with me and wanted me to have that eye done then I would have absolutely perfect vision he said. And my head is saying no one can promise that, but I didn't say that back to him.

When I got home, I was absolutely exhausted and I crashed out on the couch for four hours .

Oh by the way, there were no seats with the other patients in the waiting room, but there was a seat at the end of a long corridor so I was told to sit on that . Now, I don't know if you can understand this, but sometimes I cannot pick up anything in my immediate surroundings to hear but due to some sort of quirk or I don't know what to call it. Speech comes into it from somewhere which I cannot see. And I was sat outside the specialist room, but I did not know that then. And I could hear all conversations in that room 100% clearly. With every patient he saw, and he saw a few in that two hour span while I was waiting.. i'm looking all around the walls. I'm looking at the door which was closed and I'm thinking how is my Cochlear processor receiving words very clearly, said from what is in the room, it must've picked up on some sort of transmission of some sort from the room, or maybe stuff was recorded in the room that we don't know about. And I was picking up a microphone of some sort. It had to be. Maybe there is a hearing loop for deaf people in the room, and I was naturally picking up that transmission on my cochlear hearing processor because it automatically does that to pick up things on a hearing loop or if there is a Bluetooth transmission going on. Anyway, the point in me saying this is every patient he saw he was telling them that they needed a cataract operation whether the second one or what I don't know, but he was telling them they needed a cataract operation and they needed it now, and every patient he saw said no They did not want it now. Their ages ranged from younger people in their 30's say, and one old lady who looked in her late 80s and she could barely walk but she firmly said that she did not want the cataract operation right now, and that she wanted to wait until she was ready. She had her two daughters with her to help her walk because she was not very steady on her feet, but she had a very alert mind. I saw her as she came out with her daughters. And her daughters were saying to the specialist, don't worry, we'll have a word with mum. We'll make sure that she comes to get the cataract done. And the old lady saying no.

The more you try and persuade somebody that, more they dig their heels in.

It was interesting being privy those conversations for a couple of hours. I don't know quite how the Cochlear hearing processor was picking it up. But I have picked up things from hearing loops from the next room because the wire, I presume, has been built into the wall of the room and I am sat in the corridor right next to that wall , and it can be quite interesting..
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Well done for standing up to the main specialist. You are right that there is a risk with all operations and you still have very good sight in that eye.
 
Fbg this morning 6.5 or rather yesterday morning now...it has just gone midnight...
Creative...a kaleidoscope
A description of it.

“Muted echoes at the end of a long day.”
A quiet kaleidoscope — soft shadows, symmetry, and a centre that feels like a breath taken in stillness.
No filters, just today’s mood....

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Krystyna23040 said:
Thank you @gennepher. I always knew that being in nature (and looking at photos and pictures of nature) was important for my mental health, but until now I hadn't realised that what I was experiencing was actually meditation.

I think that your written words taking me deeper into that dimension was a lightbulb moment.
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Thank you for your great words @Krystyna23040
 
Krystyna23040 said:
Well done for standing up to the main specialist. You are right that there is a risk with all operations and you still have very good sight in that eye.
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Thank you for your opinion on that @Krystyna23040

I have two blank piece of paper at this minute, one is labelled for, and the other is labelled against having the operation...you are on top of the second list...I feel that way too, and so does my daughter in Australia...

My current plan is to go to a new optician of my choice. He's a new optician and has only been open just less than a year now. I have been keeping an eye on his progress and how his equipment has changed or how he is running his practice now and I like the way he's running his practice.
I have some questions to ask of him about this experience at the hospital and I'd like to know his opinion...

But I am having a day off tomorrow really today now. And then I will start this on again Thursday because I still need to find out if I need glasses to drive to fill in myDVLA form...

But Wednesday is going to be a day completely off all this...
 
5.6 at 04.20 today.

Podiatry appointment today - at last. I had to specify "as late as possible on a Wednesday" so that I can keep my bandages on my legs as long as possible and get them rebandaged on Thursday morning. That has delayed getting an appointment. Just as well I don't wear normal shoes - I wouldn't be able to get my toe nails into them.
 
Good Wednesday Morening fellow posters and painters.

Blood sugars on this soon to be busy morning were 5.8

Have the bestest day you possibly can and I now understand why people say words like youth is wasted on the young.
In answer to that I’m thinking I had my time and I’ve lived a full and interesting life. Now if you don’t mind later today I will probably raise a smile and act outrageously.
 
6.7 this morning.
Aldi main shop done - it was quiet so we got around the shop really quickly.

Next job is to take Bonnie for a walk. It is a bit chilly but the sunshine is lovely.

This afternoon it is admin work as my sister is coming over at 1.30pm to do her usual shift.

I am doing a bit every day, so am not overdoing it.
 
gennepher said:
Thank you for your opinion on that @Krystyna23040

I have two blank piece of paper at this minute, one is labelled for, and the other is labelled against having the operation...you are on top of the second list...I feel that way too, and so does my daughter in Australia...

My current plan is to go to a new optician of my choice. He's a new optician and has only been open just less than a year now. I have been keeping an eye on his progress and how his equipment has changed or how he is running his practice now and I like the way he's running his practice.
I have some questions to ask of him about this experience at the hospital and I'd like to know his opinion...

But I am having a day off tomorrow really today now. And then I will start this on again Thursday because I still need to find out if I need glasses to drive to fill in myDVLA form...

But Wednesday is going to be a day completely off all this...
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I like the sound of the new optician. It will be interesting to get his views on your experience with the hospital @gennepher .

Good that you are having a day completely off all this today.
 
Fbg 6.8

So tired today after last couple of days...

Creative...a kaleidoscope
Here is the ALT text for this.

ALT text:
Kaleidoscope pattern created from a photograph of a weathered, industrial building with scaffolding and exposed beams. The symmetrical design radiates outward in sharp triangular points like the spokes of a wheel or a sunburst, with repeating textures of crumbling brick, and tangled wires and steel. The outer edges show fragments of pale sky, while the centre forms a compact, mechanical-looking hub. The overall effect is gritty and geometric, like a mandala made from a construction site.


Tomorrow, I will post the real photo of this and explain a little more.

Good night
Sweet dreams

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6.9 this morning.

Sister is coming over to do admin so I shall also spend the morning doing admin. We really do buckle down and do the work - not just sit and chat.

First, though, is a walk for Bonnie. That chilly wind has dropped Airbus a bit warmer today. Predictive text thought it would be funny to replace chilly wind with chilli wind.
 
7.1 at 05.20 today.

Leg bandaging day today plus Neil has to take a whole lot of cardboard boxes to the recycling plant AND he has to go to the bank to try to sort out a problem with his bank card AND we need some shopping after a bit of a shopping problem yesterday, so we will be in town for quite a while.

Yesterday he tried to use his bank card to buy a tool to finish the job on the roof but got his PIN wrong and then couldn't remember the right one so he used my shopping cash, then when he went to the bank to replace it, he got his PIN wrong again and now his card won't work. Using my cash meant he didn't have enough left to do my shopping. If he can't sort it out today, I'll have to use my card or get cash to do the shopping. He knows my PIN by heart, but can't remember his own! He could just use mine but the bank isn't keen on that. He knows mine because I can't usually see the little machine screen or keypad so I have to ask Neil to do transactions for me.
 
Annb said:
7.1 at 05.20 today.

Leg bandaging day today plus Neil has to take a whole lot of cardboard boxes to the recycling plant AND he has to go to the bank to try to sort out a problem with his bank card AND we need some shopping after a bit of a shopping problem yesterday, so we will be in town for quite a while.

Yesterday he tried to use his bank card to buy a tool to finish the job on the roof but got his PIN wrong and then couldn't remember the right one so he used my shopping cash, then when he went to the bank to replace it, he got his PIN wrong again and now his card won't work. Using my cash meant he didn't have enough left to do my shopping. If he can't sort it out today, I'll have to use my card or get cash to do the shopping. He knows my PIN by heart, but can't remember his own! He could just use mine but the bank isn't keen on that. He knows mine because I can't usually see the little machine screen or keypad so I have to ask Neil to do transactions for me.
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Oh dear @Annb
Fun and games with PIN numbers
 
Fbg 6.6

Creative... this is the real photo from the kaleidoscope of yesterday. It was when I was sitting in the café over the road waiting for my appointment at the New Royal.

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A tall concrete building, almost entirely demolished, stands as the last vertical remnant of the old Royal Liverpool Hospital. The photo is taken from inside a café, with two red pendant lights visible above. A single red demolition crane reaches up the building’s left side, its claw pulling away at the top floor while a cascade of dust and rubble falls. A torrent of water gushes from the crane’s tip, used to suppress dust. The structure’s inner walls are exposed, wires dangling, windows shattered. On the right, the wrecked remains of adjoining sections reveal once-painted walls in faded pastels. Behind the ruins, a modern building gleams, its clean lines contrasting the broken shell. Blue construction hoardings line the street below.

This is building I knew well. It replaced the Liverpool Infirmary in 1978, which still stands nearby (And now belongs to the university of Liverpool ) and which I also knew, and used to attend with my baby daughter. The new Royal rises just next door. Through the café window, I watched the demolition cranes at work, water streaming to keep down the dust, revealing the bones of what was once a busy, vital place.
Sometimes, a photo isn’t just a photo. It’s a portal through layers of memory - of places, of people, of change.
(This is the final phase of demolition. Only this narrow slice remained.)

A little extra...
Going back some years, to my childhood...
When I was a child, I loved watching demolition work . And when I was about 15 at school, I couldn't do a lot of subjects because of my deafness and I pushed and pushed to do Art because they did not believe in Art as a subject, and I was the only one doing Art. I found some buildings were being demolished (1965) and I managed to get permission to go out and do sketches and photographs of these old buildings being demolished. I don't think that would be allowed nowadays, especially a girl on her own.

Have an amazing day.

Take care

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