7.4 yesterday, 7.2 today.
Mrs L has had another manic situation.
It is not good.
I was the target of the verbal and physical abuse, not the first time and probably not the last.
The family, our sons and in laws were quickly around. And helped.
This afternoon Mrs L is visiting her middle son. Just as a way to help me have a bit of me time.
I'm tifed, I don't believe I have been anything but this year!
Sorry about the news, but, I feel I up to put it in writing.
I think I will be making a few phone calls tomorrow.
Aw mate...that's just SO hard on you.
You know you have my sympathies AND respect .
I absolutely agree with the many posts suggesting more help for you.
(And where else can you let out that pressure cooker you're living in, without causing those close to you, to face a reality, they are not yet ready for
So DO please, when you can or need to , let this be your relief valve
The place you say the things others may not need to hear from you)
It's all good advice, but of course it's understandable how so much self care, goes out of the window when one is caught up in the whirlwind that 'miss rememberitis' as you called it, brings to one and all in the home.
My story you know, but just to remind you, my mum did similar to my dad
At first I took it as slightly exaggerated, because when I dashed over (early hours)
Mum was much calmer..
It was only the time I arrived, and she was still in full flight, did I get the enormous pressure dad must have been under.
My lovely sweet old mum, was venous In her anger at the delusions that was driving her
I couldn't believe my eyes or ears
The spitting anger, the gnashing of teeth, the contorted face, the words I never expected my mum to ever have in her vocabulary let alone pass her lips.
I mean no disrespect, but it really was an : exorcist ' moment .
It was then, I knew we couldn't care for mum alone.
The point I'm making so badly is:
NONE of what Mrs L says is about you.
It's a version she's fermented that is eating away at the reality around her, that the rest of us see.
The anger isn't caused by anything you've done or said
It's sadly just another symptom of Mrs L illness.
I couldn't say I understood any of it fully, but it did break my heart, knowing just how confused my mum's mind must have been, to see her turn with such intense anger & hurling abuse that had no right coming from her mouth.
And horrified the victim, was the one who loved her the most and was killing himself trying to care for her.
I'd truly love to offer some morsal of comfort, but I can't in all honesty.
Best wishes &
Kindest regards
James & Lauren.