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Hi
Sorry about this thread potentially being long but i need to vent. I finally plucked up the courage to go for my blood tests. Whilst the results for cholesterol, kidney and liver were fine my HBA1C was high....and i mean very very high.
I am not making excuses for why it is so high. Unfortunately i am battling a binge eating disorder and find it hard to control what and how much i eat.
so last week went to the GP and obviously was told that i have to start insulin - i am devastated at this because i know i will put on weight and with my BED getting heaviers (am already overweight) it is going to be a vicious cycle. Still doctor asked if i wanted to go on anti depressants which i refused but i am being referred for councelling.
today i had to go and see one of the GPs in the surgery who specifically deals with diabetics and she was ********* useless. She looked at the medicines i take and had to dig out her medicine reference book to check exactly what the Byetta was all about.
she was like...oh in 2012 when you had your tests last it was fine, but now it is very high - do you think she bothered ask me what might have led to that??? oh no...
oh she was like...well you need to start insulin...and i was yeah but i have concerns about that...so the conversation went a bit like:
me: i am concerned about the weight gain
doctor: yes you will put on weight.
me: i am concerned they will take my driving license away
doctor: that only happens if you are a HGV driver
me: well i read that people experience more hunger on insulin
doctor: yes you will be more hungry
me: well i know i need to go on insulin but i feel that it is going to cause me more problems with my eating issues.
doctor: yes you are between a rock and a hard place
i am so angry. do you say to an alcaholic - here have a pill to help your liver but it will increase the urge to drink.
that is why i hate hospitals and doctors - they just see you as a number, they do not know what is behind a person what they have been through - like potentially having an eating disorder, like their mum being diagnosed with cancer, like them feeling upset about not having kids or like them feeling like they rather live less than putting on more weight which make them feel more **** with themselves.
i do not know if i want to scream or cry.
sorry about the length.
thanks for reading
Sorry about this thread potentially being long but i need to vent. I finally plucked up the courage to go for my blood tests. Whilst the results for cholesterol, kidney and liver were fine my HBA1C was high....and i mean very very high.
I am not making excuses for why it is so high. Unfortunately i am battling a binge eating disorder and find it hard to control what and how much i eat.
so last week went to the GP and obviously was told that i have to start insulin - i am devastated at this because i know i will put on weight and with my BED getting heaviers (am already overweight) it is going to be a vicious cycle. Still doctor asked if i wanted to go on anti depressants which i refused but i am being referred for councelling.
today i had to go and see one of the GPs in the surgery who specifically deals with diabetics and she was ********* useless. She looked at the medicines i take and had to dig out her medicine reference book to check exactly what the Byetta was all about.
she was like...oh in 2012 when you had your tests last it was fine, but now it is very high - do you think she bothered ask me what might have led to that??? oh no...
oh she was like...well you need to start insulin...and i was yeah but i have concerns about that...so the conversation went a bit like:
me: i am concerned about the weight gain
doctor: yes you will put on weight.
me: i am concerned they will take my driving license away
doctor: that only happens if you are a HGV driver
me: well i read that people experience more hunger on insulin
doctor: yes you will be more hungry
me: well i know i need to go on insulin but i feel that it is going to cause me more problems with my eating issues.
doctor: yes you are between a rock and a hard place
i am so angry. do you say to an alcaholic - here have a pill to help your liver but it will increase the urge to drink.
that is why i hate hospitals and doctors - they just see you as a number, they do not know what is behind a person what they have been through - like potentially having an eating disorder, like their mum being diagnosed with cancer, like them feeling upset about not having kids or like them feeling like they rather live less than putting on more weight which make them feel more **** with themselves.
i do not know if i want to scream or cry.
sorry about the length.
thanks for reading