I feel sorry for you. You have received a great deal of helpful advice, but you haven't really committed to trying it. You are letting people that do not have diabetes--or that do, but do not control it-- lead you down the wrong path. Make up your mind about your health and how you want to live your life. No one else is going to walk in your shoes, take your medications, and ultimately, lead a life of illness and regrets...you are. Diabetes doesn't get better. It gets worse. That is the one guarantee...unless, you stop it.
Life is full of choices. You need to make your choice. Stop making excuses about why you can or can't be successful, why you can or can't eat certain foods. Get mad at your diabetes and kick it to the curb. Take back your health and your life.