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[Lamont D]

Hi all.
I am now officially diabetic.
My hba1c is 58.
There are many reasons for this, but the main one is, I can't control my propensity to control my eating habits.
With my mental illness, it is very hard to stop the sweet things.
it is quite stupid really, when you know, you are self harming this way. But when your day is totally on helping someone else, especially the cooking, it is too tempting to not be stupid.
the main thing about the symptoms is when you do have some sweet things, you want more, in fact sometimes, you just want to eat the fridge.
I know I'm doing wrong and I don't want to stop posting or advising, just because I have fallen off the wagon.
Back on the gliptin after about five years stopping.
Back on anti depressants and counselling service again.
As always, I will take on the battle with my body.
It will be hard. But isn't everything these days?
Best wishes.

 

[Antje77]

I'm sorry to hear about your struggles @Lamont D , you've had quite a lot on your plate during the past years.

How is your RH doing with your current eating habits?
I know from various facebook groups that RH is often a precursor to diabetes (any type), so your experience with both and the overlap between the two can be very valuable to other members.

With my mental illness, it is very hard to stop the sweet things.
it is quite stupid really, when you know, you are self harming this way. But when your day is totally on helping someone else, especially the cooking, it is too tempting to not be stupid.

Not stupid at all, just life getting in the way!

Back on the gliptin after about five years stopping.
Back on anti depressants and counselling service again.
As always, I will take on the battle with my body.

I'll cross my fingers for anti depressants, counselling, and gliptins making your life a bit easier again, please don't blame yourself for having to keep too many balls in the air, something has to give way at some point.

And have a hug.

 

[zand]

Oh so sorry to hear of your struggles @Lamont D
but thank you so much for posting. I've recently done the same thing. I thought my days of comfort eating were over, but no, they're back.

For me it's savoury things, mostly crisps. When I was out of the house as a small child my mum would buy me crisps as a treat. I began to see them as a refuge from the bad people and bad things that were out there in the world. If my mum bought me crisps I was safe and loved.

This week we had workmen in the house for longer than expected. I felt my home, my safe place, wasn't safe while they were here. Afterwards I asked my husband to buy crisps when he went to fill up the car with petrol. It took 6 packets before I was calm again, but at least I was back on an even keel again. Now though I am finding it difficult to resist the urge to have more, along with craving bread and other carbs.

So @Lamont D how about you and I try to beat this demon one day (meal, or minute) at a time?

Hugs

 

[EllieM]

@Lamont D you've been such a help and pillar of strength to so many on these forums. I'm sorry that your physical and mental health is giving you a hard time at the moment but I know that that many many forumites will be wishing you well and wanting to help you just as you have helped others.

If it helps to vent, you'll have plenty of willing listeners.

Wishing you well and sending you lots of virtual hugs from New Zealand.

 

[Rachox]

So so sorry to hear of your new diagnosis and mental health struggles. You provide so much support to other members over the years and now it’s your time to receive support back. I’m glad you’re taking steps to improve both your physical and mental health. I hope you feel better in the not too distant future. Another hug coming your way, from me.

 

[Lamont D]

Oh so sorry to hear of your struggles @Lamont D
but thank you so much for posting. I've recently done the same thing. I thought my days of comfort eating were over, but no, they're back.

For me it's savoury things, mostly crisps. When I was out of the house as a small child my mum would buy me crisps as a treat. I began to see them as a refuge from the bad people and bad things that were out there in the world. If my mum bought me crisps I was safe and loved.

This week we had workmen in the house for longer than expected. I felt my home, my safe place, wasn't safe while they were here. Afterwards I asked my husband to buy crisps when he went to fill up the car with petrol. It took 6 packets before I was calm again, but at least I was back on an even keel again. Now though I am finding it difficult to resist the urge to have more, along with craving bread and other carbs.

So @Lamont D how about you and I try to beat this demon one day (meal, or minute) at a time?

Hugs

It's so great to hear from you @zand. And it's great to have you still posting after all your challenges.
Are you still getting to games?
Crisps are an evil!
However our demons have certain names, the worst for me is chips and wheat.
I am all up for the continuing battles with my my organ that continually lies to me, encouraging the temptation and urging me to poison myself.
Why I do it? I just don't have the answer. And it seems your brain is lying to you as well?
I have been good today, so far.
But I have no doubt, that will change later, when cooking.
I wish that @Brunneria would push me again in the right direction, one more time.
She was a tower of strength for me and made a difference just like yourself and all the other friends I have been ever so grateful to try and help and chat to on various threads.
Keep in touch please.
How's FGR? Ha!

 

[Lamont D]

I'm sorry to hear about your struggles @Lamont D , you've had quite a lot on your plate during the past years.

How is your RH doing with your current eating habits?
I know from various facebook groups that RH is often a precursor to diabetes (any type), so your experience with both and the overlap between the two can be very valuable to other members.

Not stupid at all, just life getting in the way!

I'll cross my fingers for anti depressants, counselling, and gliptins making your life a bit easier again, please don't blame yourself for having to keep too many balls in the air, something has to give way at some point.

And have a hug.

Thanks so much.

So so sorry to hear of your new diagnosis and mental health struggles. You provide so much support to other members over the years and now it’s your time to receive support back. I’m glad you’re taking steps to improve both your physical and mental health. I hope you feel better in the not too distant future. Another hug coming your way, from me.

Thanks so much

@Lamont D you've been such a help and pillar of strength to so many on these forums. I'm sorry that your physical and mental health is giving you a hard time at the moment but I know that that many many forumites will be wishing you well and wanting to help you just as you have helped others.

If it helps to vent, you'll have plenty of willing listeners.

Wishing you well and sending you lots of virtual hugs from New Zealand.

Thanks so much.


I appreciate the support from everyone.

 

[Pipp]

Just echoing the sentiments already expressed @LamontD, and wishing you well.

Sometimes the need to self sooth can be overwhelming, and so we give in to what we ultimately know is not good for us long term. Important thing is to admit it , which you have. Then forgive yourself, and dump guilt.
From your posts it is obvious that life has been tough for you lately. You are well respected here, and members / friends are willing to offer support, just as you have to others.

 

[Lamont D]

Just echoing the sentiments already expressed @LamontD, and wishing you well.

Sometimes the need to self sooth can be overwhelming, and so we give in to what we ultimately know is not good for us long term. Important thing is to admit it , which you have. Then forgive yourself, and dump guilt.
From your posts it is obvious that life has been tough for you lately. You are well respected here, and members / friends are willing to offer support, just as you have to others.

Thanks @Pipp, appreciate the support.

 

[Antje77]

Crisps are an evil!

So very true!!!

 

[Melgar]

@Lamont D Like everyone else here, I'm going to echo what's been said. Yes, you have and still are a tower of strength. You have supported members when they have felt at their worst along with a health system that can, at times, seem deaf to your concerns.
Having a mental health condition, and even though I'm using it as a singular, mental health conditions never seem to walk alone and likes company, it can really do a number on how you see yourself and how you see the world and those around you. And that feeling of being totally overwhelmed and swallowed up by it all. So finding within yourself a place of peace can helps. That's what I do, that's my go to, but you know yourself and what works for you. Remembering it can be the hard bit.

Food can be our go to, that place of comfort. Sweet stuff and that dopamine hit. I know it well. I can struggle to say empathic things so I go all practical, so as for crisps. I make my own. I bought myself a mandoline slicer. I make my own chips from veggies, beetroots , suedes et al.
Just know we are standing with you Lamont .
Mel

 

[shelley262]

I wanted to send hugs and empathy to you especially while dealing with your current struggles. I'm certain that for me long term caring ( now 50 years as a carer) and all the associated chronic stress were a major cause both of my, at times severe, mental health issues and my subsequent development of diabetes ten years ago. Assisted by that sugar raising cortisol mixed with a difficult to control need for comfort food ( of course always carbs!) The whole situation is so complex and inter- related. From my experience the key turning point is valuing yourself - without you the cared for person or persons wouldn't cope and this leads you into the difficult situation of always putting their needs first, until you yourself are so ill you can't. First step is looking at your needs so that you continue to be well enough to cope yourself. Take care of yourself you spend so much time looking after others at home but also giving such valuable support to members on this forum. Look after yourself and take some steps to doing things you enjoy. Thinking of you and your family.

 

[Lamont D]

@Lamont D Like everyone else here, I'm going to echo what's been said. Yes, you have and still are a tower of strength. You have supported members when they have felt at their worst along with a health system that can, at times, seem deaf to your concerns.
Having a mental health condition, and even though I'm using it as a singular, mental health conditions never seem to walk alone and likes company, it can really do a number on how you see yourself and how you see the world and those around you. And that feeling of being totally overwhelmed and swallowed up by it all. So finding within yourself a place of peace can helps. That's what I do, that's my go to, but you know yourself and what works for you. Remembering it can be the hard bit.

Food can be our go to, that place of comfort. Sweet stuff and that dopamine hit. I know it well. I can struggle to say empathic things so I go all practical, so as for crisps. I make my own. I bought myself a mandoline slicer. I make my own chips from veggies, beetroots , suedes et al.
Just know we are standing with you Lamont .
Mel

Thanks @Melgar
I really appreciate your posts and I'm always interested in your experience.
It does make me feel better knowing about the support is here.
Cheers mate.

 

[Lamont D]

I wanted to send hugs and empathy to you especially while dealing with your current struggles. I'm certain that for me long term caring ( now 50 years as a carer) and all the associated chronic stress were a major cause both of my, at times severe, mental health issues and my subsequent development of diabetes ten years ago. Assisted by that sugar raising cortisol mixed with a difficult to control need for comfort food ( of course always carbs!) The whole situation is so complex and inter- related. From my experience the key turning point is valuing yourself - without you the cared for person or persons wouldn't cope and this leads you into the difficult situation of always putting their needs first, until you yourself are so ill you can't. First step is looking at your needs so that you continue to be well enough to cope yourself. Take care of yourself you spend so much time looking after others at home but also giving such valuable support to members on this forum. Look after yourself and take some steps to doing things you enjoy. Thinking of you and your family.

I resemble everything you say @shelley262 .
It takes a special person to be so dedicated to those we love and care for.
Our experiences are necessary and rewarding at times.
But are outweighed by far too many horrible days, that can become so stressful as we try to struggle through those days and episodes that are not something we are unaccustomed to, that test us sometimes too much. Coping can be very difficult and depressing. Some days feel like a prison. Trapped in a state of caring. Always on call, always listening out for her, or being called, or cleaning, or feeding, not much time for yourself, disrupted sleep, wishing for better days, when you know........!
I thank you for your concern and I am going to get that help, and I'm gonna get myself better for Mrs L. We are going to battle away.
Tomorrow is gonna be a better day.
Best wishes.

 

[TinksMum]

Thank you for your posts. I have been controlling my type two by diet only for 5 years and you and many others have been a great inspiration but recently I have had carb creep. I am due for my review in a couple of weeks and suspect my A1c will have gone up this time. I have none of your excuses. My lovely husband cooks for me. I have lovely children and grandchildren and a good life. However somehow I'm letting the busyness of life be an excuse for eating the wrong things - including crisps which I hadn't eaten at all for about 4 years! Please do know that you and your witty and interesting posts are widely read and are helping all kinds of people. You are an inspiration to me and make me feel guilty for complaining about my life when I have none of the troubles you are fighting through. Keep fighting - you are a very special person!